-wEdDiNg-haTe tHis fEeLinG-sTudY sOoN-

Tonight will be A***'s wedding eve...i will take part too...hmmm...so happy..U know last time A*** told me alot bout him and his wife..hmm..we talk,we discuss,advised,opinion....i treated him like my bro..i care bout them..i still remembered when he was so down after broke up with her,he talked to me...that time i didnt console him,but i scolded him..hahhaa..bad right?i still remembered he said i was like shooting gun,keep shoot him..but he appreciate my bullets...hahaa..dont play play..all my bullets shot at the right spot..he said he awake le..started to appreciated le..this is what we called GUYS..appreciate after losing it...hmm..hope they really know appreciate each other..this marriage is not easily gained..wish-happiness always stay with them...
I'm missing D*** now...damn miss...i message him,but no reply..errr.hate this feeling that keep guessing what he's doing..maybe he slept le..so i send a good night message..no reply too..feel bit pain...i was watching Endless Love,but my eyes keep peeping my phone..so i decided to put silent mode...but it doesnt work..sometimes i was thinking is it he treat me like how he treat her?he tells the same stupid jokes to us?he makes me laugh like what he did to her?he pampered me exactly like he did to her?hm..i think TOO much ler...D*** said he like ASTRO..so i think is it he always repeat the same thing?must be tired right?pity D***...hehhee
Next week start study ler....still waiting the offer letter...if everything is ok..then i will move there ler...new room,new housemates,new schoolmates,new environment....everything will be brand new...i will update my study news here..hmm..how's my schooling life will be? ...to be continue...

-BeLoNg tO Us-uNEaSe-

Somewhere..... over the rainbow...way up high-i just cant believe your're gone...still waiting for morning to come- though i couldnt live without you...its gonna hurt when it heals to....it's all get better in time- closed off from the love...i didnt need the pain...once or twice was enough...and it was all in vain...time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen-you look so dump right now...standing outside my house...trying apologize..you're so ugly when you cry-'hui yi guo qu..tong ku de xiang si wang bu liao...'-p.s.iloveyou-kungfu panda-bubur ayam'
hmm...memory that belong to us..just now he message me that J***** asked to watch kungfu panda...i feel...errr....hmm...not well of course.!! why wanna share our memory wor...can do other things with her ma..ergghhh..geram nia..BITE U!!!feel unease and pain pain....wait!!message alert..lalallaallaa..he said he's not watching any movie le..good.hmm,luckily...ehhhheeehe...omg..so emo..emo carcar..lol.

-rEPLaCEmeNt-nOt tO Be-Cee-tOO-piD-

Alright!!D*** leave here ler..now he's in Singapore le..last night we talked very long in the phone while he's in bus...hmmm...i know D*** wish to see me but we cant make it...i promised D***** that i will company him to Penang..we go Dr.Lim,then Fish Spa,then GMC to donate blood..but cant make it,we reached there 6 something..donate blood only available at office hour.ha.cute D*****..after we went to Island Plaza..the cold storage..wow..hehheee....the wine corner...lovin it!!i always dream that my dream house have a little wine corner-merlot,syiraz,cabernet...hahhaa....after that we went to eat western food at 'bai yun shan'...the lamp chop so nice...hehee..
Actually i can feel D*** very sad.he dont want to leave me...i dont know why,he will back here two weeks in a month ma..maybe he really wanna leave me..the night before that,D*** give me a bear..the moment i saw the bear..i was..errr..keep thinking is it D*** want the bear to replace him to company by my side??what he mean by that?hmm...ok.bear..i'm a simple gal but not normal gal who likes teddy bear..i only like piggy or puppy.but dont worry D***,i wont throw it aside...and i like it too...moreover it is a pink one..i saw something under the bear's foot..haa..dont tell me u didnt notice it...ok..
Now it is not important bout to be or not to be..i dont want end up 3 of us get hurt..D***,i like this sentense..'the further 1km heading to south,the deeper 1cm hurting to my heart'.hahha...sounds so nice..your mouth always like this de..can create and think alot of weird weird things...if it is real,then u count how many cm le...hahaa...i just want it to be simple..if u decide something and i'm one of the reason,i will step out..u get it right?everytime i said i'm ok,actually i only feel 60% ok..i still remembered how i feel the night me and my friends at Mcd..i received your message that wrote having dinner with family..and me alone in hotel and you at Alor Setar...bad feeling..of course i feel something,i'm run by blood k...just i dont really mind it..caused what i thinking u already get it last night...i'm happy that u know the real joy of being together...endless topic,stupid joke and imagination,aobanness argue...ha..i think only us is like that nia..hahha..hmmm..
enjoy while it last

-tOuR iN S'pOrE-

I really cant imagine that i went to Singapore alone...but luckily,D*** back with me...they bring me go tour around S'pore...i went to Vivo City for shopping...window shopping..lol..,viewed Sentosa beach,go East Coast Park eat delicious hawker food and they bring me to Clarke Quay at night.a place that looks like Penang Road...but of course much better than Penang Road..so nice there...i entered a pub named LUNAR...the live band was great..i like the skinny girl...her voice is so nice,and she's humour too...feel so relax listening to her...
Someone came to me and tell me something...hmm..should say warn me...guess what's my answer?...'hm.ya i know'..this my answer..and then he said something meaning like why i still knocking my head into it...hmm..maybe to him,he thinks that i am stupid..not only him ler...other people will think so...why why why???carmen,u totally lost ler..
Btw,i do walked around Bugis Street...ooh...that stupid Levi's promoter...i gonna complain her...alarm also can forgot..bad service.haa...i go pray with D*** la...go Changi Airport la....so nice...D***,must pdf in your memory...cannot delete,cannot modify...haa...lalallalalla...aoban right?learn from who else?hahaa..
D***,i want u to remember every single moment of us....NOT allowed to forget any...get it?*hug and miss*

-rUSh-2Nd dAy-

Hmmm, i wake up early in the morning...it's a rainy day...i get ready and i took MRT to Scotts Road...i walk all the way under the drizzling rain ..hmm..someone did asked me am i 'bag packing'..lol...after that i went back to my hotel to check-out and shift to E***'s house..luckily,or not i'll be bancrupt staying in hotel Singapore.hahaa...one night in Singapore,i can stay star hotel in Malaysia le..so 'paiseh' to trouble him.haa..in return if he wanna come Malaysia for a trip,he can stay my place also,got one empty room..(i know is impossible)lol..his mum is cute...ha..if u saw E***'s room,u will feel amazed...so do i...ha..not bad this guy.LOL..
I will be meeting D*** today noon..he have to go for medical check-up..i waited for the whole day..i think he got 'heart attack,high blood pressure,diabetes..'..hhaa..from 2pm wait till 6pm!!!is ok...haa...i walked Bugis Street alone..hm..then i think alot of things too...i knew,i realised i shouldnt do so....i'm not selfish!!i think alot,i think for D***,i think for J*****...i didnt ask much from him...hmmm...i dont know why like this...i will hurt J*****..i'm a lady which run by blood NOT petrol k....haa.i will feel unease sometimes...i asked alot,but all my questions usually banned by D***.'this is not a question'..i just wanted to know more..i really ok with that le...D***,dont need to care much bout my feeling...i said real de...care her more is better.i feel uncomfort when i heard he lied to her..i prefer he lie to me cause of her instead of lie to J***** cause of me...

ERghh...D***,i thought u're pulling brake le....but why it seems like u're speeding?u know u cant,but why u want to treat me so good?why wanna make me accidentally fall to u wor.....fall to someone i shouldnt fall...aikss...just now he lied to me that J***** will be sending him off..i was suddenly totally blank out..i was thinking..'ooh,what i should do later..i wanna act didnt see anything...blablabla..'.end up is fake de...'kek si me'..bad la...evil.
i hope there's a little space in your heart that filled with our memory...hmm..i dont know how long it will be...how far we will go...how much i can stand..
"somewhere......over the rainbow.....way up high"

-rUSh-1St daY-

I've make a decision to go Singapore on this Friday night....who will go with me?haa....no one le...me alone will be there...i know no one gonna believe me ...ok...i reached Singapore on the early morning of Saturday...wow....fresh air of Singapore in my lungs....hahhaaa...C*** meet me at Golden Miles,then bring me go for breakfast,and also check-in in hotel...after that he gonna leave me alone there..cant blame him,he's not free on that day...just can blame me didnt get to inform them earlier...haa...who knows..i went all around Singapore by MRT alone!!!WOW....myself cant imagine too that i'm walking all the way around Singapore area alone...by looking at the map.haa..moreover,this is my first time to Singapore..the feeling of being alone in a foreign country is really not that good...i hope D*** will go with me..too bad,crushed with his actual plan...i do miss him and hope he's with me all the time...hmm....i know...it's 'bu ke neng'...
Alright,i walk around Chinatown,and ate McD on the first day...this time,i think of D***,infront of me there's a poster of 'Kungfu Panda',then i think of him again...so i decided to call him...and his caller ringtone make my tears flow automatically...so bad....it's our song...NO..should say, is MY song...haa...the feeling on that time is really bad....hmmm...the whole day i was alone...and i realised how much i miss him.................

-hOw iT wiLL Be-

RING!!!Something flashed over just now and reminded me that D*** no longer available...yes,i'm clear with this...now,what i can say is,let it be what it will be...depends on fate and timing...haa...why wanna be like this leh?u should be clear than me right?remember?pull handbrake...
Tonight i saw J***** again..hmm..can consider very
'xin fu' le...everytime go will meet him de...i feel so excited when i saw him..haa...A*** realised le,and keep laughing at me...bad.tonight D***** so lucky when he play pool.he scored so easily into the pocket..really gave me a big shocked...haa..i thought he learn secretly..hehee..anyhow,he still look cute.ha..(he will kill me if he see this..cute konon).
Alright!back to my own thingy.tomorrow i will go to Singapore le..i know is quite rush..but i just don't want to waste any chances.like what kor said,'how many chances in life?'.kor support me to give a try.gambateh carcar...i very nervous now and feel pressure...i wonder they will keep my record not...but,not long ago nie...just last year nia...and they ask me to try the next year...haa...anyway,wish me luck and GBU...muackss..beside this,J*** will attend the int on next Weds...wish him all the best...
GO GO GO!!!

-wHat am I tHiNKiNg-

Today D*** will be very busy...totally got no time for me cause J***** is back le..i was thinking,did he eat bubur ayam as breakfast?hehee..i hope no...D*** promised me something but he broke it....i don't wish him to miss me when he's with J*****..when he's with her,i hope his heart is fully with her.i don't want to be selfish.haa.i think i'm not....lalalaaalalaa..hehee...
OH GOSH!!!this is my first time i need to think a lot and feel scared to message D***..haa...u know what i worried rite??hmmm...maybe i think too much..Today my leg still swollen and bruise..feel bit pain when walk too.this is my clumsiness..i knocked my leg in swimming pool...(don't laugh)...i used to knock here and there...and bruises everywhere..no medicine for this.haa..my ulcer still pain,and my lips dry and tear..all this making my mood so down...sad.D***..where are u wor...need u but not here.hmm, nevermind...i understand..i won't let u feel dilemma..no worry ya..
I need to sign off le...have to wake up early in the morning..need to go BSN bank,need to call UTAR,need to arrange and plan a lot things...gambateh carcar...hehee

-pLaNNiNg-

At last my scary day past jor.....and it brought me a bad news.....i cant get local Uni...so sad...So,now i have to plan for my future pathway....either i apply again for local Uni or i go Utar....now Utar also not sure there's a intake in July not...if no,ten have to wait till Jan le...local Uni also same...if get also have to wait till Dec le.....so what i gonna do for this few months?working?but before this,there's a walk-in-interview for stewardess in Singapore on 22nd June....i always have this interests...i plan to go for a try...i dont know what the result will be....but i wish to try....i know it's quite rush....ergghhhh.....i feel so annoyed now...nobody beside me when i really need someone....*haiz*..at this moment i thought of my beloved bro....i message him just now...still waiting for his reply...but he always so busy....hmmm...wanna cry also cant find a shoulder...pity carmen....
I will slowly think,decide,discuss,and plan for it....

-18th JuNe-sCaRy Day-

Dont know how to describe my feelings now...nervous?excited?worry?hmmm....my result will reveal tomorrow le...how could it be?i should have some preparation to face it..*take a deep breathe*...dont dare to think how it would be tomorrow....God bless me...
Later i going for swimming...nowadays i always go swimming...and physically i'm getting darker and darker...haa...
I saw J***** on Sund again....haa...feel so happy to see him there...no wonder A**** always put me at pool area every Sund...girl,u know me well...thx..haaa...hmmm...dont know still can get to meet him before i go study not...i hope so....wish me luck...hehee...
Suddenly i missed my friends so much....haa...i hope everyone got their own pathway to go..achieving their own dream...finding for their future life....and we still keeping in touch with each other although seldom meet......
.

-No mORe mIsS-

When S**** fetch me time,we accidentally mentioned bout Y**.it is not a purposely act,is just S**** wanna know,so i told him....i did told him means i dont mind it anymore...since so long i never tell people bout mind past relationship,but i did it just now...at first i have some sad emo,but after that i'm alright...this is normal right when someone talking bout sad things...hahaa...past tense means past tense...i also wish to find someone i can rely on,but not now S****....make it slow..haha..i'm still young right?lol..and i hope my parents wont give me such pressure...hahaa..i think S**** understand this kind of pressure...yeaa..
Tonight i quite enjoy the pool game...nice game...'gay in the house' improved alot le...even can beat me le...maybe i should be proud of him..haha..this is what he told me...D*** look bit moody...i think he thinks alot bout his work...hmmm...ok..let's guess who i met tonight???lol..yea...is J*****...very long didnt see him ler...still the same to me..but i prefer his last time look...haa...the guy i always like to see...wont get bored de..hehee..till S**** asked me what am i looking at...hahaa...*secret*lol

-sPeEcHLEss aNd tHOuGhTLesS-R.I.P.-

Everything still alright before i mention bout J*****...and i totally dont understand why D*** always dont like to mention bout her in front of me??where got people dont like to mention bout their beloved??i asked means i care bout him and i didnt mind of anything..so why cant u tell me??u refused to answer all my questions...this make me mad...yes i admitted that from last time till now every words of mine keep reminding u bout J*****.i have to do that right??this is the fact...and i also reminding myself that u already in relationship...DONT DO THE THINGS THAT YOU KNOW U CANT!! u said you know u cant,and u really cant,but u also cant stop yourself from doing so,then what u aspect me to do in return??i thought after the Q&A session we already clear in our mind...i really do..and i think in the end u are the one who not clear.. i thought the purpose of Q&A is to clear me off...after last night conversation i really speechless and thoughtless..but dont worry..i'm alright..D*** said he will make it past tense,i think he got no choice,this is the only thing he can do...wish D*** all the best...and wish 'nathananne' happy forever.....
Last night i heard a bad news....A****'s daddy R.I.P at 1am...so sad to hear that...dont too sad girl....must take care of yourself...this is what we called LIFE...'born-old-sick-die'..try to think the positive way...God take him away so that he no need to suffer from his sickness anymore...anyway,hope u recover back to your actual position..happy go lucky..cheer up!!
Do appreciate everyone around you...you wont know what will happen tomorrow...it's meaningless to appreciate it after it is gone....

-EmO mE-

Tonight went to OldTown with HT....his flight will be on this Fri..after tonight dont know when only can meet up ler...he still the same..start to blush when shy.anyway,wish him all the best and must take good care of yourself....hehee...Just now i quite angry cause i heard something bad...actually not something bad la..just like not nice to listen...or maybe my reaction too over le...haa..and i scolded C****...i think he also shocked cause suddenly i was so emo..then my mood suddenly so down.haha...anyway,sorry ya...but me as a girl...also dont like to listen those thing mah...ha..maybe i took it over serious...paiseh ya...
i wonder what guys will talk bout me when i walk pass...really cant imagine and dare not imagine..especially in front of C****..hahaa..sure nothing good de..
Hmmm....C**** said he will held a steamboat gathering on 19th...yea...so long didnt eat le...cant wait for it...hahaa...sounds so tamchiak...lalalaaalaaa..LOL..
So nervous lerr.....this Sunday Daddy's day then Monday my result will reveal le...really nervous..wonder anyone will company me this Monday...if bad news then cheer me up,if good news then have to celebrate ler...need to take a deep breathe before i open the envelope...hahaa...
Must pray hard for me ya...all the best to me..

-pReSeNT-2 iN 1-

Just now i went to Sunway Carnival Mall alone....i go to search daddy's present...hmm....since daddy's wallet spoilt le...so decided to bought him a new one....moreover daddy's birthday is on June too...so make it together lo....tomorrow will go order an ice-cream cake.especially lychee flavour ...daddy love it...then we'll go for dinner....yea...hehee...
This coming Fri is kkk's birthday...so just now i bought something for him too...is a shirt..haa...hope he can wear it...i bought L for him...i think should be ok...when i walk around looking for t-shirt for kkk...suddenly a weird and bad feeling flash over me,,,,think back last time i used to buy shirt for Y**...haa..today only i realised after all i didnt do so le....until today..hahaa..kkk,do appreciate it k.this doesnt mean i cant forget the past,just the past suddenly recalled and this is what we called 'memory'.....hahaa...kkk please diet le...if not u cant wear it le...hehee...
I just register my Maxis from prepaid to postpaid....the promoter said cheaper wor....so i try lo...can rebate RM100 wor..so try it for 5 months ....
i think should be ok....hehheee...

-cREatiViTy + iMaGiNatiON-cOpyRiGht-

Those are the words and creativity + imagination of someone..Hahaa..you should know who is it..it makes me laugh everytime i read it back...here goes.....

• HACKS - Hanya Aku Cinta Kamu Sahaja

• 1st- sorry, 2nd - where are u, 3rd - miss you
• Technically mouth hitting..(lol)
• '..there are one clumsy gal behind a diet man..'
  
• '..u're the most cute person i ever meet recently..' and paired with '..i'm the most overweight person u ever meet recently...'
• Dinner gown-casual look-loklok look-sushi look
• OK.FINE.WHATEVER
• lallallllallalallalallllallalalala
• impossible is nothing (ADIDAS)
• just do it (NIKE)
• dont play play (BATA) -didnt listen before
• i'm lovin it (McD)
• B.B.Q- BIg Blur Queen
• passport for friendster , i/c for email
• 180kg instead of 180cm
• TIENasonic - ideals for love
• m.u.d.d (hahhaa)
• mantao-dao sha pao-char shao pao-
• '..zhu zhu..wake up le..zhu..'-doesnt work =.=""
• '..if one day he fed up and come and ask 'what the thing u dont like bout me just tell me i can change!!'then u must reply,'what is the thing u like bout me just tell me,i can change too!!' -funny..LOL
• ..then i dont wait u le,u got key rite?u sendiri open the door..kitchen got soup..just reheat it and eat..baby feed le..drive slowly ya..take care *** **
• the video clip during our buffet
• 32 years old,2 kids,wife run off,prisoner..(haa)
• if outdoor ..i pray for a heavy rain,if outdoor...i pray for whole penang electrical black out
• '..u're shit and i'm toilet bowl.i used to flush u in the past life..'
• promised you whenever we argue.if u wear black colour shirt,i'll apologize first-dont think so,never happen before..hahaa
• pig nose,panda eyes
• our pool blowing ball
• the best oscar partner award..hehee
• A.D.I.D.A.S-All Day I Dream About S****-lol
• N.I.K.E-Need I Kiss Everyday?
• DHL-Dua Hari Lambat-hahaa
• UMS - untuk monkey sahaja
• joena carwis - waiting love
• 3P-piggy nose,panda eyes,penguin leg
• 3G-gorilla tummy,gajah nose,giraffe eyes..lol
• A.I.D.S- Aoban Is DearDear Speciality
• D.I.A.B.E.T.E.S-
• ET- Emotional Tienny
• ABC- Aoban Beauty Chef
• CIP - Carmen Is Pig kek si wa
  
• JC- Jamban Chua hahhha
  
• DVD vs VCD

P.S. 1.term and condition will change or add in future
2.pls dont get mad with me ya...u know who i mean..*wink*

-NiNE wOrdS wOmeN uSe-

1.) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2.) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3.) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4.) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5.) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7.) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8.) Whatever : Is a women's way of saying F*** YOU!


9.) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.Then you RUN!

-bLuRr mOrNiNG-cLouDy nOOn-

Hmm...slept near 5 in the morning and i'm awake 7 in the morning by my mummy and my beloved bro...help mummy to fixed the line for their chats....hmm...this morning my bro asked me some questions that i feel difficult to answer..he's on his way preparing for my 21st birthday present...that is next year Jan!!!hahhaa...he look more kincheong than me...cute..anyway,thanks love..he said he went to Manchester yesterday to look for my present....he's asking me,'you prefer LV or PRADA?','you want a watch or handbag?'..and he's answering on his own,'i think LV looks great on u','LV handbag is nice'....haa..then he asked again,'if you prefer a watch then what brand you want?GUCCI?GUESS?bla bla bla..'.'u want it to looks elegant or sporty?'....in a early morning he asked me SO many questions!i really speechless on that time..and i only answered him,'dont ask me all this quest that i didnt know the answer.it's like mental torturing,buy what u like then i'll like it too,i'm ok with anything'..haha..then he send me LV website and asked to have a look...cute bro..then later on i sleep back..hahaa...love you...
It's a cloudy noon...and my swimming session going to be canceled..happy D***???this is what u always wish for.bad.hahaa....lalllallaa..

-sHOt dOWn eVeRy mOmENt-i WiLL miSseD-

Last night they went to Citibox then to Fuel...but i didnt join them...very tired.so i decided to rest at home.then i watched 'Alvin and the Chipmucks'...so cute..i keep repeat this movie today over again...hehee..this is me..like to repeat the music or movie which i like...weird right??even my friend said why only this song is played?hahha...
Tonight i join them to Pool Cafe...then to McD...i cant stand the uncle uncle over there...geram nia....want to play pool in a peace situation also cant..feel like smacking them...okok..cool...hehhe...hmmm..just now go McD i ate alot leh...fat fat le...ha..think back i feed D***..hahha...not with real heart de..looks like feeding enemy..got that type of feeling like cursing him when he eat..hehee..so funny we two..keep arguing just now,somemore in front of W*****...somemore D*** asked to act sweet...while he's the one who started first..hahaa..cute..but just now D*** purposely asked me away to talk to W*****..sure something bout me..is ok,i wont ask...but i really wanna know le...make me think alot nia..stupid D***...haa..just now we took alot of photos too...i wanna keep every moment from now...i gonna miss u guys alot....*muacks**hugz*
D*** really knows me well...he can guess what i gonna do next and i can predict what he going to say...hahha...maybe he only can read all the naughty things i do..haha..he's a big copycat...i can see he learn alot of things from me...big influence..hahaa..all the 'lallalallaa','ok.fine.whatever','aoban-ness','xiao qi',...hahha..hmm...when there's no guys around us...i feel he's cute and funny...but when there is...he got one kind de...hmm...dont know le...he's going to leave Malaysia and stay in Singapore le...not bad to have future in Singapore...add on his girlfriend is there...so will be easy le...but i feel weird de is why just now D*** said give him two months time then i'll know le...what he actually mean?hm...nevermind la..maybe on that time i really know gua...anyway,wish him all the best in future undertakings....
D*** bought alot of haunted movies...i going to have nightmare soon...hahha...i think this is what he wish for...bad..LOL...

-iDeals fOr liFe-mIsSeD-

Hooray!!!Last day loo...so happy...tired for four days...at last can rest le...this four days really happy...knew some friends over there...all are friendly,humour,cute,caring....i do enjoy when i was with them...hehee...
Ohya...Lumix-D***** really good in massage...wonder where he learn from....maybe from...girlfriend??shhhh...heheee..really feel relax after that...and i guess mine also not bad right??hehhee...hmm...still remembered i accidentally burnt your neck when straightening session..hahha...sorry la..who ask you so 'ai mei'??LOL..i also burnt CNM-D*****...paiseh la...i'm a clumsy girl...hehhe..just can blame yourselves so unlucky.LOL..but CNM-D***** looked so fresh after that burnt..hahhaa...he dont need any coffee to help him stay awake le...thanks to me ya...*wink*
Today my stomach not feeling that well...feel like vomiting...i guess my gastric is back....haiz...but it is getting better after Lumix-D***** bring me the balm...you're such a caring guy...appreciated..and thx for the 'bak chang'...haha...
Beside this...suddenly recalled....CNM-D***** still owed me towel gift..hehhee..he said want to give it to me the next time we meet...but..dont know when le...hehhe..nevermind,i still have your contact,,you're the one who asked me to msg or call you when free ya...so better dont forget me...he said he wont...but we'll only know it in future..hehee...
Luckily in the end there's photo for us to keep as memory....yea...the photo with the sexy and pretty roadshow gals,Wah Lee employees,and us....it's a happy ending!!
PANASONIC- ideals for life...*wink*

-faReWeLL-

So tired this two days till didnt get to update my blog...work in the morning and sleep late in the night!!hahha...Saturday night is so damn tired..and that night is the last night of J**** and the gang...LOL..so we went to our 'old place' to farewell for them...guess where is it???FUEL ofcourse!!hahaa...hmm..not bad...everyone is enjoying...especially me with the pool..yea...i like pool so much...but last night i feel so uncomfortable when i played...you know why?few people is looking at our table when me and D*** play..ergghhh...i hate the way they look...make me more pressure and uncomfortable...then after that we played pair..me and E***...hahaa...my 'idol'...LOL.he look so sweet and cute when he smile..but he's not when he tried to escape from the 789 dies game...hahaa...frankly speaking,I WANA QUIT TOO....my nightmare!!!and AHEMM.., 'i want to take this opportunity to thanks E*** for the double one punishment'.(sounds like giving speech in the stage)...ergghh,i wont forget you...hahha...wonder who created this game...
Hmmm....dont know when still can meet you guys le....sounds like missing huh??haha..yes i do...glad to know you guys too...thanks for water paint my life so colourful!!!!hehee..(paise)....
All the best in you guys future undertakings...and....and...you guys are NOT ALLOWED to forget me...sound so sassy right?haha...all my 'auban'-ness learn from D*** de....*blekk*hehee...
lalalallalllllalalalallallaa

-cNm-LOL-sUrPrisiNg-

I didnt thought of he's the one...quite surprising actually...but still ok..he's one of the 8tv artist..today he told me alot of story bout his career..quite fun with it..he closed to LinYuZhong.FanBin,Dylan, and also others..can see he's not that type of lying...hehhee...not very action,but very friendly...he's also a Manager of a roadshow event...so, in future i no need to worry i will be unemployed le..hehee..actually his roadshow job very fun and challenging.i shall try in future.
Today working place suddenly got one guy gave me a piece of paper...on the paper written someone's name and phone num...ask me to contact that fellow...guess what???haha..he said that fellow wana know me wor...so surprised!!!where got people like this de?WEIRD!!hahaa..anyhow,i didnt do so.
just now go Segafredo online again...tonight people look at me with their very weird eyesight..i dont know what happen!!maybe i wear TOO casual le...aikss...then later on go Fuel time,my mood suddenly changed!just feel something's wrong there..so i leave early and without telling them..sorry ya guys..no more next time ler...
i need to rest for further journey...night loo..*wink*

-tiReD bUt wORtH iT-

Really tired ler today...i think not only today.will be tomorrow,the day after tomorrow and so on..standing over there like doll,smiling here and there...hmmm...so tiring....Last time Carrefour,now over Wah Lee...but not bad le,got free steamer to use.hahha...everyone was over my booth to try the steamer...other than steamer,we also tried hair dryer,hair straightening and also hair curl...haha...sounds like saloon?yeah....Panasonic Beauty Care Saloon...LOL.

Today saw a mp3...very nice...feel like want to buy...but i really need to think properly before i buy it..maybe i need it to company me during my Uni/Utar time...do u think pink nicer or the purple one? heheee.but the pink one seems like no stock le...1GB can install over thousand songs le...hmmm...u know la...in my lonely life,the things that always company me is songs and pictures...hehhee....
D*** message me during evening time...message text like this:'....we broke record le, 4days din meet le.'...after count and count,i think is 5days le..hahha..sounds like miss me huh???but i know is impossible geh...i know who u really miss....hehhee..and another message text is:'....u log on in this la www.love169forever.com can?'..weii,D***....this website exist kah??LOL..so cute..hehee..i think we can stay in touch like this although after i go study or u go your 'supposed' to place...hehee...dont forget what u promised ooh....pinch your nose and smack your big tummy if you forget.hehhee.but i can sure u forget de la...'mou liong sam' de human being..lol...
Something happened today...Lumix Camera promoter try to explained something to me to make me cleared,but he ended up with 'ben dan'...and suddenly i feel 'ergghhh'....i think he knows and he said let me punch him back for saying that word..but i didnt..hehhe..actually i dont really mind.Just suddenly feel annoyed with that word.this few days keep listening to this word le...so sad..'ben dan' here and 'ben dan' there..LOL..have to apologize to him,i think my reaction bit frighten him...hehhee..but still CUTE le...dont worry.lol.okla...
Getting more and more tired le....want to sleep le...good night le..*wink*muacks*

-trOubLiNg eVeryONe-'tiaN tiaN De'-

Petrol price increased again!!!RM2.70/litre...rice up,petrol up,electricity up....salary remain..so shit!!what's the thing that our country not increase de?Making all the traffic jam.i'm so innocent..tonight went out to fetch my mummy from my aunty's shop,haven't reach the place also,jam like hell..two way become 4 way le..just imagine,in 15mins no car are moving!!erghh...hate that i stucked in the jam..ambulance cant past also..pity the ambulance...driver impatient,making the jam worst...causing all the fighting scenes...funny Malaysian...i stucked in the jam for more than an hour..*faint*..summore raining..all wet chicken le..my cousin very cute and funny...he wearing helmet but his shirt all wet le...after see some people didn't wear helmet,he also took off le..my mum ask why and he answered,'they also didnt wear,look so 'yeng' under the rain without helmet'...LOL...cute.kek si my mummy.
Just now went to Segafredo online again.i like the environment...but today the music abit noisy..but still OK.Just now D*** take a nap and asked me to wake him up,so i called him after an hour more like this..i feel so cute...'zhu zhu,wake up le,faster wake up zhu zhu'...lol..but doesnt work,cause this pig sleep back after i hang up..wasted my credit for calling nia...hehee..end up i know actually he sick ler...so okla...nevermind...forgive him...LOL..
Today my freelance job making me headache.I just want to work in a comfort condition...asking me to wear bareback and heel to stand whole day???do you think is comfort?so i decided to reject le..although i promised earlier..but they didnt tell me have to wear this and that..so i accepted another job le...Panasonic promoter...Last time work in Carrefour before...moreover same salary per day..near my house,wear t-shirt....MORE comfort..hehee..tomorrow working le...4days.jia you ba ..sleep first..wake up early for my job..yeaa..*wink**muackss*

-aCtuaL pLaN-sTresSed-

3rd of June...suppose now i'm walking along the beach in Pangkor island...but i quit last minute..if not i'll be there for 4days...sorry ya friends..i had such decision because i scared i really will be isolated or be lonely there..i know i asked two of my friends join,but i still scared....that day go Perhentian island also same..i cant click together,all couple de,make me feel 'pai seh' to disturb nia..and nowadays i like to be alone de,i also scared i will bored my friends.moreove,my mum doesn't encourage me to go,she said i enough dark le...add on,i got work on the 6th June..one day Rm120 leh..heehe...anyhow,really sorry guys,next time le...'dui bu qi'..
Today noon i took my lappy to my cousin's shop..have to leave there to fix it.so sad.but is ok,my lappy will be back tomorrow..yea..Oops,should be today cause now ald 2.06am le..lallalallallalaa....hmmm..nowadays quite stressed..really feel pressure.i cant sleep well two nights le..thinking bout my offer letter..OH GOSHH!!plus on,today suddenly argue with D***..bout the nonsense topic..hehe..sorry la...my wrong.*pinch my nose for u*..hehe.don't angry ya..actually i care not only what S**** said,i care what everyone say..i promised i will only be 1st and that only one k?i'm not so stupid like what D*** say la...2nd or 3rd...hehee.
Just now went to Segafredo to meet A****,so long didnt see her d..but still have to thank God for raining.and can't make my swimming session on...if not maybe i wont be there le...i see she so lovely with her boyfriend..really wish them happy forever...just now i saw one incident they did and suddenly make me think of Y**..last time we used to behave that too..but past le la...facing future now...throw the past.yeah...okla,chao first.*muacks*

-mOOdy niGht-sUcks!!

everything not going well tonight..lousy connection, lappy down, msn lack, everything so sucks!!! whole night staying at home doing nothing,what i can do is just sit in front of my screen and television..actually i'm just doing the same thing everyday...wasting so much time while waiting for Uni offer letter...*as if i can enter*LOL..
this moody night always make me think alot...no matter for future or past...moreover i cant sleep well last night...erghh...what am i doing??
why i cant get someone to listen to me whenever i need ?but i'm the one who listen to others when others need an ear...too good d ler...*ahemm*
actually what it really means 'can be a good 2nd gf'?i'm just wondering,don't worry uncle joe...i didn't keep it in my heart....just figure out since nothing to do.....

-New Here-

hmm...WOW...now my turn to create blog...last time i keep wondering why people keep blogging...now i understand ler....this is the only place and space for me and my feelings...from now on,i will keep blogging.....no matter sad,happy,sorrow, i will be here...hmm...i will be heading to Uni soon IF i get it...LOL...so,i created this blog to company me all the way....hehee...but i wish i can get new life,new memory lane in Uni IF i can enter...hehee.
going to stop here...just posting a starter for my blog...still alot more coming soon...*wink*