....

Maybe you are right

i'm selfish at this situation

i know i can't give you anything you want

i hope you can move on

but when i know you are on the way to move on

my heart hurts

i feel the jealousy and unwillingly to see somebody gonna own you

i know it's time to put a full stop

but i feel very heavy to do so

really very heavy to do so

this is because im still missing you much

I'm Back!

Wow!! so long never step in here jor...
so many to updates...but im gonna cut short..

let's see how short...hmmmmm

so far i'm so good and happy =)
LOL!

The latest update gonna be my internship =)

Internship in Intrenasionale, and event company

Is a fun company, enjoy my days here

and im happy to be here =)

That's it for now =)

- The journey continue -

All the while he's waiting me for the move

and glad, i did it. why not?!?

just follow your heart and do it =)

and now, our journey continue again...

can i said this is one of the obstacle we are facing??

thank God, we tried to overcome and things settled.

the 2nd chapter of our story gonna be like how?

seriously, i dont know but will always excited for it

There's so much changes in the beginning of the chapter

and i know, i need to coop with it

i need to get use to it all over again

but obviously during the process, there's something that hard to avoid

guess what??!!?

think too much lorr

it's the natural feelings that ones will have

it's really tough, hmmmm

work hard gal...

lift it up is easy, but put it down, it's harder than u think

- What I've learn -

I learn do not hold grudges

I learn to say sorry which the biggest weakness of me

I learn to share and express feelings

I learn to close one eye

I learn to watch The Big Bang Theory

I learn to love movies

I learn not to prejudice

I learn to play better in pool

I learn to play snooker

I learn not to make assumptions

I learn not to have expectations

I learn more on football

I learn to play with cool sometimes

I learn more on what is Christian

I learn to experienced ghost hunting

I learn how to drive to Pulau Tikus

I learn to play Uno spin

I learn to expose to nice songs

I learn to eat malays food

I learn to eat Penang best char koay kak

I learn to celebrate anniversary without expensive presents, or much money and yet very happy

I learn how to look on the bright side

I learn to read KennySia's blog

I learn what is floorball

- Officially Single -

Yeap! I'm officially single now

the feeling is bad, or i can say is worst

the worst break up ever

this few days pictures, words and memory keep flashed back

trying hard to put that away

and i know all my friends will support me

people ask me 'how are you'

and i keep on answer 'i'm fine, i'm ok'

but how many times i really meant it?

there's no more anger, no more hatred in me

what just left is heartbroken, and sad

if i say im not sad, no one will believe also le

that's impossible cause im a human too

i know it shouldnt like this

but i just cant help myself

Now, everything is a past tense

and i need to get through this and move on

i need strength so much

and obviously i need time!

everything shall be fine =)

carmen owh carmen

you need to stay strong

dont make people around u worry

p/s: thank God my parents havent acknowledge it, how can i present this person to my parents...wise me

fuhhhh

DOUBLE VISION PARODY.wmv

in this new short sem

we are giving a task as a part of our assignment

we had chose 'Double Vision' to re-create it

it's a very nice experience to make a parody =)

below it the video...funny XD

- 改变 -

最近不懂我自己是怎么了

我好想要改变

能改的就该，想改的就该，不想改的就不用改

我有点闷了....对已爱情这个话题感到闷

很想回到以前单身的我

很想念那种想做什么就做的感觉

很想念那个坏坏又顽皮的我

也想回到那种被人追的感觉

但是把爱情丢一边的我

其实爱情没什么大不了*如果没感到寂寞啦*

真的很想回到自由的我

不知道为什么我会有这个想法

可能累了吧

但是我也不可以那么自私

对吧？顺其既然咯 =)

- I Got You -

once again im into Leona Lewis after her Bleeding Love

and this time is I Got You

it's nice, it's meaningful and i heart it

- sem break -

i'm back to my bloggie again..

gosh...so long didnt update

as usual after finals i had my 3 weeks sem break

3 weeks man!!! AWESOME

but time flies....

basically during the holidays i eat, sleep, shit, and the process go on...

then night added hangouts...

cool? not at all....damn boring but fun!! wheees *dunno what im saying*

spent a lot of times with lovely friends to catch up what i missed

and not forgetting the quality time with my lovable and adorable daddy and mummy *heart*

i like to be home, cause i can feel bunch of loves

everyone is like so sayang and pamper me

*look at those pics, that's how i past my holidays*

anyhow, the sem break have to end

it's so cruel...utar wont let u totally enjoy your holidays

during ur holidays, they want u to check your result!! screw utar!

luckily it's not that bad....still managed to get a satisfied result...=)

Finally, a new sem is starting soon and i need to get back to my 'nest' =(

sad, real damn sad....so reluctant to back kampar....

i packed my stuff at the very last minutes....seriously....

and it's time to say bye to BM...

*happy* ^^

- another 'hate u' day -

good!!

bravo!!!!

getting more days to hate u

keep going keep going!

counting d days now

ahhhhhhhhh

25th sept fast fast come!!!

- pointless -

what is this?

u thought u come back dinner with me

after dinner ask me play pool

then can d?

u thought u doing ur duty is it?

i said no because i got no mood

all spoilt by u

i know after that u going out again

so why wanna spend me some time then leave me alone again?

i rather dont want!!!

hate u!!

i know if u saw this u will say

got so many to say can tell u

no need to write in blog

i like la!!!

lazy to talk to u

and feel pointless talking to u!!!!

- i wont stop, i wont care -

what im really thinking now is i wish my exam finish fast

and i can back to my hometown tomorrow now...

how eagerly i want it to happen

at least back hometown i can laugh mine and u still can laugh urs

u do your own things, and i do mine

but now im trapped with all this i dont like!!!

at least at hometown :-

when u are having fun with ur friends, i can meet my friends

when u are sleeping, i have tv to watch

when u are not beside me, i can chat with my parents

when u hangout, i'm also out with my friends

Kampar time :-

when u are having fun with ur friends, i do facebook

when u are sleeping, i awake

when u are awake, i sleeping

when u are not beside me, my mind blank!! *thinking what to do*

what else i can do? never know that my life in Kampar is so bored!

Just ask urself, when have u really chat with me, talk with me, or laugh with me???

ur chat, ur talk, and ur laugh all i can see is when u are with ur friends

i know i can join, but sometimes i choose not to

i want you to accompany me, not you watch ur movie till u fall asleep

i do my things till ur fall asleep

ask u to accompany me, u ask me back, 'what you want to do?'

i know u got nothing to do with me...didnt know u are so bored with me

recently, u slept in the morning

u sleep, i wake up, until u wake up, it's time for ur futsal

after ur futsal, it's time to dinner with friends

after dinner, u sleep again

when u wake up, yamcha with friends or whatever

if got activity till morning again..when u back, im sleeping

and so on...

Last night was thinking

i really shouldnt stop u, so i wont stop u anymore

i stop u, u wont be happy, sleeping, and watch movie

so no difference if you are beside me or not

i really shouldnt...my bad again

it's also my joy when seeing u having ur joy with ur friends

but it's my sadness when i know i cant see this when u with me

just go ahead with what u like, i wont care too

just like the smoking issue, go ahead, i wont ask, i wont care

i dont want become a disturbance for your joy

because i hate it

i'm upset

no one knows

- Fun time in hometown -

So fast my own holidays had reached an end!
My own holidays was awesomeeee!
I met alot peoples this time i back *happy*
I attended a casual reunion and i met all my secondary friends
Wow...big changes everyone...and ofcourse become more pretty

We gather at Gurney, and end up we had our dinner together at Manhattan Fishmarket after dinner we went Faces to chat....*happy* all the ladies!!!

Plan to give my mum to use my phone then i temporary use Kenny's old phone
but my dad dont allow me to do so cause she said my mum will always flood her phone
no point she use a good phone LOL
pity my mum...
her first phone drop somewhere then hilang jor
then this 2nd phone she keep putting in her pocket then go wash...LOL

Then daddy mummy bring me go to see our new house hehheee..
quite nice but havent start renovation..
dunno when only i can move there
everyone keep tease me that after i move there,
then i need to move again liao u know why? cause will married then move again lorr...=.="""
but i like my new house design...hehehee...
sooo looking forward to it wheeees =)

owh and another thing is my dad is so cute
he bought 100plus, he tell my mum that he know i'm coming back that's why he buy
cause he know i want to drink 100plus *so sweet*
but hor...he buy d he put somewhere in kitchen without inform me
how i know there is 100plus leh? i think he wanna drink himself le!! LOL
cute daddy

And now i'm lack of shoe!!!
i need to shop for shoesssss just bought one nice sandals, and now i need a cover shoe and heelsssss

That's all
tomorrow going back to kampar and have to study d
cause finals coming
carmen, dont lazy!! LOL

- Coming to an END -

owh Lord~~~
i'm so tired and so busy
of what???!!?
assignments larrr, presentations larrrrr, photoshop larrrrr
after all this, final pulak $%^&*()$#!
anyhow, i'm glad that my assignments are coming to an end
yeah~~now week 10 and i left 1,2,3 and 4!!
4 more to go
that day was counting and i was shocked that i had 11 assignments this sem!
HELL..is 11 which i need to hand up when the due date is here...
and now, im craving so much so much for a break!
therefore, im going back this end of month for about one week! wheeeesss
cant wait for that...
seems like so many things to do when im back there...haaaas
just wait for me, i will be home soon =)