-[ BACK ] luuu -

Yeah...going hometown later...and decided to go see tit da tonight before i attend sexy rhou's party...and i gonna meet my lovely xinying tonight...happy = happy...hohohohoo
And i gonna have my joourney safe...will drive carefully and not recklessly as what my kor said...hahaha
And hope mummy not going to say anything bout my leg..( so impossible ) hahaa...anyway...will be praying hard *finger cross* wink....

-[ NOTHING ] is right -

Today dont know what happened...the turning part for my dance still cant make it...very very headache...still trying for it...we dance in the gym room with the mirror...much better except for my turning laaaa....LOL.
We attended dance club general meeting.and this sem slightly different from the previous sem we see...they introduce each category constructor to show their dance...and we really enjoy watching it...i love alicia's ballet.so so so gracefully...aiya..one word NICE.hahaha
And today Munyee stepped my leg again and this type is my toe..ERGHH...very painful.and now,my toe is bruising and swell jor...cham..tomorrow back hometown must go see tit da lerr....i think this time that sifu going to wrap my leg...hahha.'bak chang' leg...=(
anyway,munyee, dont blame yourself for hurting me...not your fault ler...myself careless nie...hehee.
So happy tomorrow back hometown lo..can see my loved one..i mean my daddy la,mummy la,hubby la.hehee

- bleeding with tears -

Not enough having a short distance, and now add another longer distance and now...it ends up become a very very long distance.5 yearsssss!!!yea.is 5 years and i hope it is a joke too.so hurt.and now i'm really bleeding with tears..
Can i stop this from happening? so impossible.
Suddenly feel i got no confidence towards this relationship...
either towards him or myself
dont know why i feel so
suddenly feel there's no future in us
or just i'm thinking too much?
Now also counted as distance already ma...whatever,i just really cant accept the fact.
I know i shouldnt feel and think so
and i cant think of giving up,if not really no more ler this relationship
i really need time to digest this fact
i need shoulder to cry on
i really hope nothing will change de
*deeply sad*

-[ HAPPY ]-

I'm so so so happy...just chatted with kor and so sorry kor,promised i wont forget your birthday anymore...it is so careless...maybe nowadays damn busy with studies....assignment,classes,dancing....erghhh...up and down...sorry kor..it wont happen again...hehee...
Just now my kor asked me whether i got facebook or not...quite a shock actually..supposedly I'm the one ask him...and he already facebook-ing for almost a year...kor so bad la u...add ur mui so slow..isk isk isk..anyway,still very happy...so i no need to chat with him in msn long long once in awhile....ya hoooo...*happy*
So idiot...he said me fat jor =( cannot wanna diet liao...body build ( dreaming ), tummy piercing ( dreaming )..haha
okla...that's all...miss u so much kor...love ya..*wink*

-[EXCITED]-

Just back from practising...what else..fan dance ler...so *tut*...LOL..i think fan dance will turn to faint dance...hahha.need to turn round and round....so dizzy man.anyway,i need to search rabbit for WChyet before i back this weekend...thurs lo then..and so excited for this coming weekend..wana back hometown ler...Fri will be sexy Rhou's birthday...so will be party then...HOHOo...then Sat class reunion....*happy*
But today only Monday...still got a week to go...gosh.
Hmm..wonder wanna buy what for Rhou...how bout sexy bikini..hohohohohoo...not bad...and now is 2am ler..wanna bed ler.see ya then....*wink*

-untitled-

Kinda feel weird when things slow down...maybe is true...human changed according to surrounding...relationship changed too..so difficult to maintain.and end up, 'whatever,let it be how it wanna be'.....since the other party doesnt feel like appreciating...sometimes just feel hurt with it.
Why such things always happened on me...still not enough challenge to let me face mar???dont care whatever it is..i believe nth can stop me....
I wish to back hometown everyweek...wanna join PBSM ler....but i think is impossible...maybe two weeks once...
It's time for me to have a change..

-[HOME-COOKED-RICE]-

At last we cooked our own for dinner..so happy..and i get to learn few dishes.hehee..a dinner for rainbow crew.the gals cook and the guys eat.and supposely wash dishes....but dont know why end up i'm the one washing.hahahaa..anyway,as long as everyone happy then ok la..LOL.
After dinner then the gals will practiced fan dance...OMG..damn difficult leh...need to catch the feel...the step and the most worst is need to catch up the turning..hmmm..everyone learn till sweat + headache..hahahaand next day skip for class pula...i'm alone attending IPC lect.hahaa.sign for the rest including zhenyi.surprising?? not really..nowadays he changed so much compared to sem1.haha.cute.

-CONFLICT-PISSED OFF-

The result of not enough sleeping hours is very serious...just like today..everything not going well.early in the morning ms.eng 'pek' us till very 'chek'....ok fine with that..then later on my id lost and found back after one hour??within an hour la..and four of us look very pale..not enough sleep ma...then mood no good...then things not going well.and 8 to 8 classes..then we feel pissed off easily...
And today..here the conflict occured.and is between me and wwei..wow.again.ergghhh...we had misunderstanding in our conversation...and she yelled at me at the moment i wanted to start my sentence with her.and the excited+overjoy mood of mine totally fell to the ground.then after the that i just walk off after my hand wash.frankly speaking,i do angry and to said is very angry.just put ur shoe over me,someone yell at u when u are exciting to share something..how u feel? alright,maybe u are annoyed with something that i want to share,but also no need to yell right??totally heart broken.after that she's mad over me,claiming that i get angry so easily...harlo..u just yell at me and wish i talk and smile with u?i dont know bout others,but to me...i just cant.
Alright,some incident happened to her,and she get so emo..friends around said this to me...'she's not in her mood,just received a bad news'....and this mean u can yell me like this?i'm sorry to heard the bad news,but i still cant accept just because of u emo and u yelled at me like this...whatever.
After that i'm not talking to her anymore although after i cool down.she do msg me and apologize.ok.i also not so xiao qi.already forget bout it jor.i chose not to talk to her yet is because i dont know what should i say after all this (bad news+down+she need to cool down).just want to lessen her worries.

I'm not angry anymore.before that yes la.damn angry.when the anger is there,really thinks alot.'why u all say can,i say cant? why u all getting excited over someone can,but i cannot? joking nie ma!!' erghhhhh but now,i really took it as 'forget it la'...as hao por bong sayings, 'soh la...so many years of friend jor...'. right? just wanna let u know that,no matter what happen,friends will always by ur side.even if u really sad,down,moody, we will always ready for u.just dont lost control like this..u are hurting someone else. and bout ur friends,i really dont know what to say except GOD BLESS and praying hard for the goodness.

TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY

-[ MAMMA MIA ]-

Saturday Myee bring me go greentown MAMMA MIA eat...wow...really didnt go to the wrong place...damn delicious...nexttime can go with wwei and xyan lo....nice lo..cheese baked rice...LOL...and hawaii chicken....tell u something...the cheese baked rice so delicious..i dont feel 'hek' after i ate the cheese..now also swallowing saliva d...hahha..and i dare to say it is more yummy than kim gary...is true..not believe can go have a try...kim gary de i eat d feel like wanna vomit...and can finish it...this is eat d also not enough...hehee.moreover,the salad is so fresh...damn fresh...really love it...add this into our 'list'...hahhhaa

-[ HOUZ ]-

Hmm...i going to take my car on Sat..so Fri night i follow Myee back to her house...and her frens bring me to clubbing...LOL..so long didnt go d...and this is the first time in Ipoh.hohoho..quite excited actually caused first time ma...so we dressed up and make up...
HOUZ is the club...and..ahmm....so small lehhh....hey guys,when free come penang k..i bring u to see what is call pub..hahaa...but also not bad la...and u know who i met there?alan..hahaa..luckily i told jit that i go club..hahaha..if not.cant imagine the 'hou guo'...and that night i drink guinness draught oo..yummy..so long din drink d..hehee...after clubbing we go mamak and we took alot of photos ooo..hehee...*happy*
but still not yet take the photo..=(
Anyway,happy to enjoy with u guys....if free next time we go yam cha la..hahaa

-[CAMPing] at Teluk Sekateh -

At last i'm back!!! back from the 2 days 1 night camp..actually it is a friendship camp ler...nth special.before we depart that morning,i went to munyee's bf's house overnight.that night really 'amazing'...hahha...ah wah pek till us very chek..but i und he just wan us to talk and bring up the 'qi fen'...hahaha..then the next day we have to wake up at 5.30am to get ready..and depart at 6.00am..hahahaa..

DAY 1
We get up late..but still in time to meet at KK's house..6.05am..hehee..after that we went for breakfast ..then we depart loooo....once again we reached Lumut...LOL...ok..in the ferry, ahWah started to introduce his friends to me and xyan ler..got KK,ahSi,Elvis ( mao wong ),ahSiew,Albert,ahQuen,LipTakHoe,ahBean,Onn zai,NgKimFung...the the rest is girls..mickey,siewfen,melissa....LOL.actually Albert name is Liaw Pet...then i heard albert...so i called him albert.hahaaaha..what a nice name..should thanks me..*AHEMM* then we got chat awhile.after reached there we took pink taxi to the place,then we hike inside to our destination.hiking.sap sap sui la...hahaha..but quite fun,long time din hike d..after about 30 mins plus we reached our camp site..our destination.beautiful scene.then guys built up tent,gals cook spaghetti...after lunch we start our day..play water looo..then volleyball...

NIGHT 1
After clean up,we are getting ready for our dinner...which is steamboat...easy.one pot boil..then can eat.LOL..too many ball ler..eat till wanna vomit.fish ball la,pork ball la,sotong ball la, crab ball la...YUCKS...at last left me,munyee,xinyan,ahBean,ahWah finished it nia...u know how?? one two jus! hahhaa.end up we are not eating, we are stucking...hahaa.*vomit* LOL.but fun.
After that everyone sit together then we talk bout ghost story..we sit under the moon.and first time realised how bright is the moon..it is really bright..without any lights around us...suddenly realised the moon is damn bright..and very beautiful.we talked bout horrow things...but still ok ler..hehehe.and the most classic part is here..suddenly dont know how the topic start.then ahBean talk bout me lansi...then ahWah agree..WAH SEH...mana ada =( he said this mornng breakfast time i looked very lansi...sure la..dont know u kok ma,takkan simply smile with ppl meh...*yunwong* hehee..see after u know me,u dont think so right...actually i'm not lerr=( i very friendly de..hahahahhaa.albert also said din feel i'm lansi also.hng! hahaha...after chat we go to sleep ler..whole night sleep with the wave sound...hahaha.and the stupid cat..

DAY 2
We had maggie cup as our breakfast.hehee.cant run away from maggie even in camp.LOL.then we just walk around,xyan and munyee pick the shell..then i sleep at the swing.hehee...not interested ma..add on sleepy.LOL.after that NgKimFung kenna bully..hahhaa..
So before we back,we took photo with everyone.u know..being around them let me feel i'm small...but after back to kampar i feel i'm big size again..hahhaaa.caused most of them very tall leh...over 180cm..ishk..except a few la..hahaaand they also very muscular...so i feel i'm small.hahaha.
Then we start to hike out luuu...hahaa..leaving.still ok.some of the guys had injured.but i believe is sap sap sui for them...hahaha.we reached Ipoh at 6something , then ate satay at KK's house.yummmy..delicious niaa..then go dinner with them loo..after that 'san band'...me back to munyee home.

That's all bout the camp...and today,munyee bring me go shopping.we go parade.hehee.i bought 2 Tee..happy.then just now before back to kampar,we go walk around pasar malam.hehee.reached kampar around 10like this.tired but happy.and suddenly received a stranger number called,and actually it is my new friend...hahaaha..ahBean called and chat awhile...then hang up.and now i ended here..updating my blog.

Thanks munyee...i dont have the fear feelings..hehee..and...sorry hubby for what had happened..all my fault.i promised no more next time k...hehehhe.and also dare not ler...love u hubby...and love my hao por bong so much...

-[ BIGGEST ] fear lehh-

According to munyee...aikss..how lar??weiwei is not going...then need overnight at ipoh,and is either at munyee house or her bf's house..but high chances is at her bf's house...dont it feel weird??and if xinyan not with me then cham lorr...the things i most fear de will happened lehh....this is also why i dont want to go waterfall with munyee and now i very dilemma...sorry gal...not i popo mama,is..i got my own situation and scared let u all sou heng nia...
Last time got one case also like this...ask me go go go...then all go in couples worr...at first say ok de,wont drop me alone geh...at last also dropped.and left me alone with those 'new friends made'....really dont like those feeling.and really make me very sad..then alwayz alone during that trip.. =( ..and i really wish it wont happen to me again...and now this case make me very scared leh...dont feel like wanna repeat history.then just now discuss halfway,munyee get angry jor and went offline...let us decide.each people will tolerate a step lo...since she arranged the plan like this also wanna make us easy...k lo...will try to overcome this fear..nahh...i tolerate ler...haiz..still scared leh...hope everything ok looo....hehhee

- [ TURNED ] to stranger -

Friendship is like this..can say very miracle and unexplainable....u can meet someone cause of fate and dont know with what reason it can turned to pass by stranger.
Today saw him trice d...3 times also pass me by without looking at me or even wish to say hi.i'm very sure that he saw me ...and everytime i also wish to say hi...but his response always turn me down..*sigh*
We knew each other since form6 and we were very closed..we less contact when he enter utar at pj campus,and now he transfer to kampar and we meet back..but situation changed..is this called human changed by surrounding??or he got other reason...no one knows..anyway,as i heard from others,he changed alot.very lansi..but anyway,still wish him all the best.
I feel it hurt caused once closed friend turned to a stranger passing by without any reason that i kno...still can accept if he just nodded his head...but his responsed is see also dont want to see....this is human being looo...things that happened can pretend nothing.lift and leave things easily...but i guess mostly happened to guys only....gals more got 'kam cheng'....hahhahaa....anyway,as him like lo..stranger then stranger loo...

-[ T.I.R.E.D ]-

T.I.R.E.D
Tienny Is Really Exhausted D
wow...hahaa...hmmm...today really tired...whole day i'm at utar...dunno what the heck i'm doing there also...classes whole day...break also half an hour,one hour...not 3 not 4...cant do anything....tired tired tired.and very funny...from block B to D then to B and back to D again...and i saw him twice...once is zhixiang shocked me with his appearance..( make me buat malu saja ) , then the 2nd time is when i cross over cafeteria...hahaa..btw..forget about it..i just back from jayson's room.my room very hot..then walk over to have a chat then suddenly our topic touched bout 'someone'..OMG!! so scary lehh...hahahaa...shhh..secret..
This intake alot of lengluis lehh...and westlake also alot ppl...cars and bikes..dont like the cafeteria..small and hot and crowded..yucksss..dont like to make myself sticky..

*carmen learn that human tends to lift and leave things easily when human are getting mature or other reason.but carmen wondering,do they rub off every of the memory?anyway,at least carmen learn something new.hehhee*

My leg is full of bruises...erghhh..it happened again...
Today intro to our POP lecturere...and we are proudly introduce our hao por bong and big head bong..hahahaa..so cute...lecturer also let us make till blur blur jor...luckily she's not dat strict,just no food allowed in her class.*sien*
Hmm...cannot tahan d.wanna bed d.tired leh...heheee.but still wanna hang awhile more kok..:P

-[ DONATION ]-

Today is my first class in sem2...ms ilma...so far she's ok...quite humour..wont feel sleepy in class.and her subject quite difficult leh..have to read more news paper and current issue...
Besides that,after exchange some info from friends...now only i know munyee is the top scorer leh....3.8..who higher than her??really proud of her.*salute*...hahahaa..gal...jia you ooo...*wink* we want another treat....hahhaa..
By the way...today heritage hall have blood donation campaign...last sem i refused to donate cause my booklet is at hometown...so this time i bring it with me ler..hehee....today i donate jor...300ml..and munyee and zhenyi do have the encouragement to donate also...yea..

Here's a pic of me and some of the 'donators'...hahhaaa...they took this pic because yeo's sponsor us..so we have to take a pic with yea's soya with cert...hahaa...i'm around so i've chosen =.=""sadhu sadhu sadhu