- The journey continue -

All the while he's waiting me for the move

and glad, i did it. why not?!?

just follow your heart and do it =)

and now, our journey continue again...

can i said this is one of the obstacle we are facing??

thank God, we tried to overcome and things settled.

the 2nd chapter of our story gonna be like how?

seriously, i dont know but will always excited for it

There's so much changes in the beginning of the chapter

and i know, i need to coop with it

i need to get use to it all over again

but obviously during the process, there's something that hard to avoid

guess what??!!?

think too much lorr

it's the natural feelings that ones will have

it's really tough, hmmmm

work hard gal...

lift it up is easy, but put it down, it's harder than u think

- What I've learn -

I learn do not hold grudges

I learn to say sorry which the biggest weakness of me

I learn to share and express feelings

I learn to close one eye

I learn to watch The Big Bang Theory

I learn to love movies

I learn not to prejudice

I learn to play better in pool

I learn to play snooker

I learn not to make assumptions

I learn not to have expectations

I learn more on football

I learn to play with cool sometimes

I learn more on what is Christian

I learn to experienced ghost hunting

I learn how to drive to Pulau Tikus

I learn to play Uno spin

I learn to expose to nice songs

I learn to eat malays food

I learn to eat Penang best char koay kak

I learn to celebrate anniversary without expensive presents, or much money and yet very happy

I learn how to look on the bright side

I learn to read KennySia's blog

I learn what is floorball

- Officially Single -

Yeap! I'm officially single now

the feeling is bad, or i can say is worst

the worst break up ever

this few days pictures, words and memory keep flashed back

trying hard to put that away

and i know all my friends will support me

people ask me 'how are you'

and i keep on answer 'i'm fine, i'm ok'

but how many times i really meant it?

there's no more anger, no more hatred in me

what just left is heartbroken, and sad

if i say im not sad, no one will believe also le

that's impossible cause im a human too

i know it shouldnt like this

but i just cant help myself

Now, everything is a past tense

and i need to get through this and move on

i need strength so much

and obviously i need time!

everything shall be fine =)

carmen owh carmen

you need to stay strong

dont make people around u worry

p/s: thank God my parents havent acknowledge it, how can i present this person to my parents...wise me

fuhhhh

DOUBLE VISION PARODY.wmv

in this new short sem

we are giving a task as a part of our assignment

we had chose 'Double Vision' to re-create it

it's a very nice experience to make a parody =)

below it the video...funny XD

- 改变 -

最近不懂我自己是怎么了

我好想要改变

能改的就该，想改的就该，不想改的就不用改

我有点闷了....对已爱情这个话题感到闷

很想回到以前单身的我

很想念那种想做什么就做的感觉

很想念那个坏坏又顽皮的我

也想回到那种被人追的感觉

但是把爱情丢一边的我

其实爱情没什么大不了*如果没感到寂寞啦*

真的很想回到自由的我

不知道为什么我会有这个想法

可能累了吧

但是我也不可以那么自私

对吧？顺其既然咯 =)

- I Got You -

once again im into Leona Lewis after her Bleeding Love

and this time is I Got You

it's nice, it's meaningful and i heart it

- sem break -

i'm back to my bloggie again..

gosh...so long didnt update

as usual after finals i had my 3 weeks sem break

3 weeks man!!! AWESOME

but time flies....

basically during the holidays i eat, sleep, shit, and the process go on...

then night added hangouts...

cool? not at all....damn boring but fun!! wheees *dunno what im saying*

spent a lot of times with lovely friends to catch up what i missed

and not forgetting the quality time with my lovable and adorable daddy and mummy *heart*

i like to be home, cause i can feel bunch of loves

everyone is like so sayang and pamper me

*look at those pics, that's how i past my holidays*

anyhow, the sem break have to end

it's so cruel...utar wont let u totally enjoy your holidays

during ur holidays, they want u to check your result!! screw utar!

luckily it's not that bad....still managed to get a satisfied result...=)

Finally, a new sem is starting soon and i need to get back to my 'nest' =(

sad, real damn sad....so reluctant to back kampar....

i packed my stuff at the very last minutes....seriously....

and it's time to say bye to BM...

*happy* ^^

- another 'hate u' day -

good!!

bravo!!!!

getting more days to hate u

keep going keep going!

counting d days now

ahhhhhhhhh

25th sept fast fast come!!!

- pointless -

what is this?

u thought u come back dinner with me

after dinner ask me play pool

then can d?

u thought u doing ur duty is it?

i said no because i got no mood

all spoilt by u

i know after that u going out again

so why wanna spend me some time then leave me alone again?

i rather dont want!!!

hate u!!

i know if u saw this u will say

got so many to say can tell u

no need to write in blog

i like la!!!

lazy to talk to u

and feel pointless talking to u!!!!

- i wont stop, i wont care -

what im really thinking now is i wish my exam finish fast

and i can back to my hometown tomorrow now...

how eagerly i want it to happen

at least back hometown i can laugh mine and u still can laugh urs

u do your own things, and i do mine

but now im trapped with all this i dont like!!!

at least at hometown :-

when u are having fun with ur friends, i can meet my friends

when u are sleeping, i have tv to watch

when u are not beside me, i can chat with my parents

when u hangout, i'm also out with my friends

Kampar time :-

when u are having fun with ur friends, i do facebook

when u are sleeping, i awake

when u are awake, i sleeping

when u are not beside me, my mind blank!! *thinking what to do*

what else i can do? never know that my life in Kampar is so bored!

Just ask urself, when have u really chat with me, talk with me, or laugh with me???

ur chat, ur talk, and ur laugh all i can see is when u are with ur friends

i know i can join, but sometimes i choose not to

i want you to accompany me, not you watch ur movie till u fall asleep

i do my things till ur fall asleep

ask u to accompany me, u ask me back, 'what you want to do?'

i know u got nothing to do with me...didnt know u are so bored with me

recently, u slept in the morning

u sleep, i wake up, until u wake up, it's time for ur futsal

after ur futsal, it's time to dinner with friends

after dinner, u sleep again

when u wake up, yamcha with friends or whatever

if got activity till morning again..when u back, im sleeping

and so on...

Last night was thinking

i really shouldnt stop u, so i wont stop u anymore

i stop u, u wont be happy, sleeping, and watch movie

so no difference if you are beside me or not

i really shouldnt...my bad again

it's also my joy when seeing u having ur joy with ur friends

but it's my sadness when i know i cant see this when u with me

just go ahead with what u like, i wont care too

just like the smoking issue, go ahead, i wont ask, i wont care

i dont want become a disturbance for your joy

because i hate it

i'm upset

no one knows

- Fun time in hometown -

So fast my own holidays had reached an end!
My own holidays was awesomeeee!
I met alot peoples this time i back *happy*
I attended a casual reunion and i met all my secondary friends
Wow...big changes everyone...and ofcourse become more pretty

We gather at Gurney, and end up we had our dinner together at Manhattan Fishmarket after dinner we went Faces to chat....*happy* all the ladies!!!

Plan to give my mum to use my phone then i temporary use Kenny's old phone
but my dad dont allow me to do so cause she said my mum will always flood her phone
no point she use a good phone LOL
pity my mum...
her first phone drop somewhere then hilang jor
then this 2nd phone she keep putting in her pocket then go wash...LOL

Then daddy mummy bring me go to see our new house hehheee..
quite nice but havent start renovation..
dunno when only i can move there
everyone keep tease me that after i move there,
then i need to move again liao u know why? cause will married then move again lorr...=.="""
but i like my new house design...hehehee...
sooo looking forward to it wheeees =)

owh and another thing is my dad is so cute
he bought 100plus, he tell my mum that he know i'm coming back that's why he buy
cause he know i want to drink 100plus *so sweet*
but hor...he buy d he put somewhere in kitchen without inform me
how i know there is 100plus leh? i think he wanna drink himself le!! LOL
cute daddy

And now i'm lack of shoe!!!
i need to shop for shoesssss just bought one nice sandals, and now i need a cover shoe and heelsssss

That's all
tomorrow going back to kampar and have to study d
cause finals coming
carmen, dont lazy!! LOL

- Coming to an END -

owh Lord~~~
i'm so tired and so busy
of what???!!?
assignments larrr, presentations larrrrr, photoshop larrrrr
after all this, final pulak $%^&*()$#!
anyhow, i'm glad that my assignments are coming to an end
yeah~~now week 10 and i left 1,2,3 and 4!!
4 more to go
that day was counting and i was shocked that i had 11 assignments this sem!
HELL..is 11 which i need to hand up when the due date is here...
and now, im craving so much so much for a break!
therefore, im going back this end of month for about one week! wheeeesss
cant wait for that...
seems like so many things to do when im back there...haaaas
just wait for me, i will be home soon =)

- Oil price increase so do the oil in my body -

i'm officially getting fatter and fatter
eat eat sleep sleep class class
owh where is the 'exercise' part i need to slot in?
hmmm...almost 9 months i never do any exercise!!
that's serious!!
today i jog with weiwen
the weather is so nice so cooling
but i'm too noob for that
short distance of jog, i grasping for airdamn tired~~~~
i need to jog more often to avoid this happen
fat people are difficult to exercisei always agree that!!! LOLfuyoooh~~so fat so tired so sweaty!!

end up~~~HUH!!!!overweight!!

- FIFA final!!!! -

that night is so full
we thought of going out one and half hour earlier will got place
who knows, it turned out to be the other way round
it's full!!! everywhere!!!!
oh gosh...here no place there no place
is a good idea to bring our own chair
but we didnt..hahaa look!! sakira also full

this is wo hin, there's another screen in front which is maha maju

see..they sealed up the lane jsut for the final!!! so happening~~

end up, we watch at a place which i dunno how to say, in front of toy boy hair saloon
that uncle is kind enough to let us watch, but have to buy chicken from him..LOL

That night was Netherland vs Spain
i'm neutral but dont wish Spain to win
but Netherland play so rough and no sportmenship at all
so i support Spain!!! wooohooooo
Spain scored at AET..by Iniesta!!
everyone cheered as if the whole Kampar going to collapse...hahaa
Spain lift the cup!!!
i'm happy also le
cause my dear said Germany should be happy cause defeated by champion
but my saying is, Spain should thank Germany for giving them the chance to lift the cup!!
hahhaa...die die wanna pull my Germany in XD
i just enjoy doing so LOL

- heart this langkawi trip -

this trip is awesome
dont believe??
then take a look at those pics =)








i hope for more more trips with them
awaiting for Bali =)

- a MUST to re-stock -

alright!!
what i wanna say is
i cant stop using this EMPRO triangular brow pencil
it is so nice to use especially the golden brown color
i remember when it is still new in the market
i was the early customer that take risk at it LOL
and it doesnt disappointed me!!!
now the price is expensive =.=''''' ard RM 38.++
so to those who wanna buy me pressie and
having headache what to buy...
i advise u to buy me this...i will definitely heart it
cause i will never stop using this unless i get to find other better than this
but not for the moment
and u help me to save $$$ *hehee
u can try it too!!

- heart stolen by the berry -

Blackberry
i'm so heart with it now
but now not the time to get one =(
but i hope sooner
erhhmmm
really nice and i really like it so much

- it drops after u left -

you promised me much earlier for the steamboat dinner
i reminded u last night, and also just now when u suggested to go
yes i very sad and disappointed i cant go again with u guys
just because i promised to have a bdae dinner with alicia
a dinner nie mar...yes i know, the problem is i promised her
i know u will say i ask u to go mar
if i din do so then what u and me going to do for the whole afternoon while waiting the current???!!?
plus i can see disappointment on ur face if u din go
lun also keep persuading, so i just ask u to go with lun
if i still grab u by my side, ur heart wont be here also
so what's the point i keep u by my side??!!?
i cried badly after u left, then i fall asleep
i dont know why
i just feel the pain
it was hot, it was pain the whole noon
tot after cleaning, then happily stay in the house
end up me alone...good!!
so i still feel im right altho i treat u so harsh just now tru the phone
I DONT CARE!!!

- WORST CUP!! -

guys, please dont bet so much for the world cup which is also known as worst cup
all the strong team will either lose or draw with the noob team
in this case, do u still think u can bet?
if u are wise enough maybe u can win but risky
so, u are always a winner when u never place any bet
last night Germany vs Serbia
Klose get red card..wth!!!
i'm so sad but anyhow, i'm still Germany supporter, Klose fans!!!
ahhahahaha..so please bear with it.
no more betting guys
and all the best

- 有意思 -

我知道有些话你不方便明显的写出来
但我知道你所写的都是我
你讲了你觉得很有意思的话
“开心” 跟 “悲伤” 是好邻居
每当你“开心”的时候，请不要笑太大声因为你会吵醒隔壁的“悲伤”
我听了我觉得很lame而且还笑了
你却说我奇怪
我觉得你说了最有意思的话就是
“你觉得‘相心你' 很深吗
我还回答‘当然啊，那么深我哪里看得懂’
那你觉得它有多深...我就‘想你’有多深
‘相心你’是‘想你’的意思
而那个‘你’就是指我
很好！！还我抓不到你在讲什么
当时我呆了一下因为吓到了
是很动听，不过对我来说是一句话而已
一句很有意思的话

- Bak Chang Day -

Happy Bak Chang Day!!!
awww...miss eating the dumpling
miss bak chang and also miss ki chang LOL
dont know why suddenly so craving for bak chang
home sick le weiii
but i just got back here last week
LOL

- new look feel fresh -

tadaa~~~
i had changed my blog layout
to a more colorful one cause i found out my life is always so colorful~~~
LOL...just kidding lar...feel bored with the previous one so changed
and i like it =)

- WORLD CUP!! -

yea is world cup season
Germany go go go!!!
hehehee...still the same Germany cause my Klose still there LOL
but he's old d now...nvm will always support him ><>
i always wanted to color one side of my face with the Germany flag color
but they said if i do like this ppl will only say me sohai =.="""
so sad...but i really want to mar...LOL
with that only have the WORLD CUP feel mar...hehee
anyways, wish not alot ppl will get into trouble for this season
betting trouble, bookie trouble, relationship trouble ( cause bf no time for gf ) etc
all the best bah
GERMANY glory!!
KLOSE glory!!

- yea i WANT IT -

So, result released
thank GOD i pass all and also pass 2.0
but the gpa drop alot
expected
but i dont know why people still say me din try my best
didnt work hard for it
what they know about it?
compare their result with mine??with a different course? WTH!!
"if you dont want, nobody force you to get this result"
wth, say till like all this is what i want
if i want it i wont so worry when i dunno how to do the paper
if this is what i want i no need to worry the paper i dunno how to answer
if this is what i want i no need so kancheong when the result is released
each sem is tougher than each sem
this i know, that's why my gpa dropping each sem
but i did work hard for it
i know maybe not enough
but this is not what i want!!
"u think to set up a microprocessor is easier than to hold a press conference?"
wow...comparing urs and mine huh?
so as what u said sooooo easy, than i should have score 4.0 every sem
so now proven i'm stupid!!!!
happy? dont want to talk about it!!!
i want next sem to be better
i swear!!! u wait and see

- IT'S KILIING ME!!!! -

ERGHHHHhhhHH
damn painful
it's hurt!!!!
last night it managed to make cant sleep
cause of the PAIN
i'm so geram thus, i get up and put SALT on it
i rub it with salt too
the feeling of pain...i dont know how to express it
i nearly faint =(
after that, good. my tongue is hurt, the more i cant sleep
erggghhhhhh
this morning, it grew BIGGER!
ulcer... please go away from me
GOD bless me

- No Idea -

why everything must be like that?
i seriously no idea why it turned out like that
suddenly feel nothing much we can do when we are together
but i can feel u can do a lot of things with your bunch of friends
if you ask me why why why
i just can answer dunno dunno dunno
i dunno where is the click between us
i know i easily get out of mood
i seriously dunno the answer
sometimes i really think is better we dont meet each other
i rather express the miss through msn, sms, or maybe voice
i seriously no idea

- doubt -

i'm sorry i doubt bout it
i really dont wish to but it happened so
i will try my best not to think overboard
not to feel insecure
will trust u for what u say
xoxo

- 原来是误会 -

跟你谈了那么就，终于知道原来你根本没讨厌过我
从那次你对我说过那么重的话，我就开始怀疑你应该很讨厌我当初伤了你
而且，听了你的解释后有点惊讶
你是因为怕我知道你有多高兴看到我
你是因为矛盾所以才会这样
你是因为怕遇到了，过后会很想才会这样
很抱歉，我没为你想过这些
我也没顾虑到你的感受
是我不好
我还以为你没事了，因为每次见到你，你都很好
原来，你说你是装的
我说时间可以冲淡一切，但你说时间可以证明一切
你所说的证明是证明你有多喜欢我
证明我在你心目中有地位，有多重要
三年了，你还是没变
我还说我在你记忆里就只有那么的一点
你回答，那如果你在我记忆里就只有那么的一点，
那我的记忆就只有一点
为什么当初你不争取呢？
我曾经在想我们之间是不是错过了什么，
不过我看你没什么那我也就只好算了
没想到到现在你还是一样
真的很抱歉，我只能说的是遗憾吧
我现在和他过得很好
过得很开心
而且还一起经历过不少了
我们现在在学者珍惜对方
对你真的很抱歉

- 人生的一段路 -

好啦！终于放假了....高兴到..........LOL
今天终于回BM了....
虽然回去的那段路只有两个小时的车程，但它一点都不容易走
突然下了很大的雨，要开得非常慢，非常的专心，非常的小心
突然雨又停了下来，我就开得比较快，比较顺利，比较轻松
突然雨又下了，下的‘啪啪啪’声，又要驾的很慢
等到雨停的时候，又轮到罗里挡路，又要慢下来
这一切一直在重复让我觉得今天的路程就像我们的人生
人生的一段路不会永远是顺利的, 你也不会永远都是个赢家
终会有很多风风雨雨来考验你，你也会经过很多很多的挑战
有时候会在想那些挑战是上帝特地安排的吗？
又会在想怎么我面对的风雨比别人还要多？
这也是上帝安排的吗？
是在训练我吗？
不过还好，每次都让我过关 =]
如果是上帝特的安排我的风雨该比别人多，那我就应该要比别人更坚强
我要做打不死的蟑螂！！哈哈！蟑螂，说到就觉得恶
我相信如果是上帝特地要考验你，他应该会有不一样的路让你以后走得更轻松
但是千万不要做那些伤害身边朋友的事，要对得起你自己
人生里应该要很清楚谁是重要的，谁是废的
珍惜身边的人，因为他们是独一无二的
不管你身边的人是好是坏，都要感谢他们曾经在你人生里留下了脚步
因为有了他们，你人生才会那么的精彩
所以要活得更精彩让曾经对你不善的人觉得你是行的！！！
加油咯！！！

- MESSED!!! -

it's totally messed
how can it turned to be like this??
from small matter to big matter
i felt so hurt in this case
i also feel like tearing, but i stop it
i shouldnt crying in this case cause it's not my fault
but i'm the victim wor...ish
if only i know from the beginning there's an misunderstanding
i should have avoid it
i should have talk it out
but i'm always a dump one, how to sense it?
i thought it's still ok, but when there's more to come,
i know i cant control myself
it's hurting my ears, my heart and my image
since it's settle, then i hope it really settle
no more from it
put it as a past, i can take it as nothing happen
i dont wish to ruin everything up cause of this
mature people should settle it maturely
p/s : i will defend myself from everything about me which is not true if i found out
better check who am i before u wanna step on my head
*God blessed*

back

i want to back hometown

dont feel like facing all the *****

miss my parents so much

my body sore cause of finals

hate this

- Easily get me 'dump' -

sometimes when i say u never put me in your heart is true
how u want me to believe you?ishhh
i did said later we watch 'How to train your dragon' after we cook lunch
you said ok..plus, i post comment on Lun's facebook..i bet you saw right??
see that? i said i will use pps later...and we want to watch how to train your dragon..
alright...after lunch, i saw he watching other movie at downstairs with Lun and Jason
i look at him..he said ...' ku wak zai', i have to say ok right??!!you already watching it d..
then i mah watch the movie myself lor..
WTH, we said d mar...after 20mins he get up
'owh, i thought u said watch tonight??'
wow...which action of mine make u think i will watch tonight??
seriously, this sentense doesnt convince me to believe what you said
i really angry ok..after we said want to watch together, then on the other hand,u can just watch other movie with with friends
who am i to you???so sad and angry
but after we talk bout it..you apologized then ok
fine...accepted
please dont treat me like this anymore
i really dont feel good at all
thanks