-I.LOVE.KUNGFUUUU.-

Last night i went to Segafredo to meet Racheal...damn hungry...i ordered a cup of peach tea and belognise...my favourite one!!!hehehe..Nathan put extra sauce for my belognise..yummy...haa...before i go Sega,Racheal reminds me to bring exension..ok i took it out from my daddy's room.but i didnt put it in my handbag..cant find it there..hehee..so i go borrow from WeoiChyet..OldTown mah...near near nie..hehee.thanks ya...u see..this is the benefits and advantages we got lot of friends...this also depends on how u treat them,then how they treat u in return..hahha...In Sega i can get discount..or either free.hahaa..Thanks to Racheal and her boyfriend,Nathan.
Later on,Yit came over...then he said he just get KUNG FU PANDA from his friend..hmm....I WANT!!hehee...previously i wanted to watch so much..and someone promised to watch it with me..however,result show it never happen..and not going to happen..i'm so excited and eager to take it from him...try to send by BT but his lappy dont have,then use email,but cant attach,then finally....we use skype..yea!!!so happy...i watch it after i reached home...
So cute ler that panda...which known as Po in that movie...damn cute...hehheee...when he yelled,'I LOVE KUNGFUUUUUUUU'....lol...and when he use to carry his big tummy....chubi neh....feel like wanna bite...lol...
cute right?lol....

-ExPecTeD bUt Not ReaDy- THANKS AIKWEI-

My parent fetch me to Kampar to settle my study procedure....and i will only start study on Jan 2009...this is the final decision...so for the time now i will be working....still waiting for Darren's confirmation to meet him at KL...hmmm...waiting.....
On the way back to BM,i received a message from J**..the message possess 8 sentences...which is all the 8 sentences i feel so pain...so stupiak him...when i read half way,my eyes starts to blur screen....what to do...am human with heart which run by blood...not machine which run by petrol....haa...tears flow secretly behind the seat...(sound so pity)..hahha..actually i expected this will happen one day,but am just not ready for yesterday..haa..nevermind la..am the one who say 'NO' first..so i should be ready to face it...
However,i need to thanks Aikwei a.k.a. coconut for accompany me in the midnight...i cried in front of him...now i feel the pain...thanks for your shoulder and the most important is your tummy..lol...after all i feel much better le....really better...i feel am totally released...and this Aikwei ya..people so sad crying d,he somemore said what look sexy when crying..where got people will look sexy de...look ugly i know la...i know he tried to make me laugh..anyway,thanks.*wink*..and not forgetting your blanket..lol..am warm with that...and sorry for disturbing your pigging time.if not mistaken when u drop me home already 230am right?..lol.*paiseh*..blekk...dont worry,i will be alright...i said totally alright...=)

LEARN FROM YESTERDAY, LIVE FOR TODAY, HOPE FOR TOMORROW

-pOor St.Anne NigHt-

Quinn back for St.Anne's day...yea...so long didnt see her le...she said wanna find me to go St.Anne...so she reached my house at 1215am with her banana bike...lol...she bring her helmet but dont wanna wear it..then me dont wanna bring at all...haa...guess what happened next?lol...we were blocked by the policeman!!! aikss...pity..then we get a piece of 'saman'...stupiak de...this is because we too innocent le...the policeman called and we stop.ha..we shouldnt stop ma...other's also like this straight go nie..but what to do...we are 'pemandu berhemat' mah...hehhee..then am the one who make the payment...nevermind la..pity Quinn nia...actually supposed to be half de..haa..evil.lalaallaa.saw whose name there?lol...hahha..pity
Ater that we walked and hike to the top with candles to make wish...when u make a wish,you have to let go or sacrifice something so that your wish come true...now only i knew...no wonder my wish never come true before...hehhee..then we walked to Tenang Garden to meet Szien...then we have a chat there...thanks gal for a long chat...miss it..we always had funny memory de...lol...the 'P' for your bikes la...hahaa..
I reached home almost 3am ald...miss the moment we had together..
Cant wait for your long holiday...hahha...take care gal..

-tHe LaSt NigHt-

Tonight is the last night we accompany our uncle....morning we will be sending him off to Berapit...then from tomorrow start we must used to my uncle's disappearance....my aunt getting better le...of course le...she received a good news which is someone 'dream' of my uncle in heaven with Buddha..something like this la..lol....
After tomorrow my aunt have to carry all the responsibilities..now,she's a mummy and she's also a daddy to her son..but,her son no longer a small kids le..so,should be know how to take care my aunt le...hope so.
Hmm...all my cousins sleep in my house...especially my bro's room...lol..i dont know how they sleep..what kind of postur also got...lol..actuallly they should overnight at my aunt housebut dont know why turn to my house pula...i know...nice to sleep..got aircond merr...lol..is ok..hehee..
I also wanna sleep le..have to wake up damn early...am the camera gal again...=(


p.s.:no fun being a camera gal cause my face wont appear in that video.=(

-sTrONg aNd tOuGh eNOugH-

Another sunny day....
Today my aunty look better le...she's tough enough...i fetch her here and there to settle up her things...we go to the Berapit Cemetry to choose a Feng Shui place for her beloved husband...then go EON Bank..inside the car my aunty look very tired..i feel so heartache seeing her like this...
My aunty told me,she and my uncle very lovely de...always go out together...now,left her alone...then her tears starts to wet her eyes...then i told my aunty to be strong...u still have us...i know what my aunty hope for....she wish that her naughty son will change...just now my aunty knee down infront of her husband...complaint bout this naughty son...i stand beside my aunty and scolded my cousin..i feel so 'xin tong' to see my aunty like this..i really hope and wish my cousin will awake and change his attitude...no one can help u if u continue like this except yourself..
GOD BLESS!!
Other than this...nothing special things happen le...i hope my aunty will be stronger than before ..we will company u throughout the pathway..dont worry..u're not alone...

-WHATT???-Rest In Peace-

Today is a sunny and moody day.....my daddy call from the outside..so i went to opened the gate..i was wondering,where's my daddy's car?how come he dont have key?..but didnt ask much...suddenly my daddy asked me,'u know d?'...'know what?'.....'your uncle commited suicide this morning'.....'WHATTT???...how could it be???'....i quickly ran to bathroom and take a bath,then walked to my aunty house which is not far from mine.it tooks only 30 seconds...when i reached...i was..'OH MY GODDDD'...he hang himself up to ceiling...i couldnt believe what i saw...
A person who always pray hard...Amitabha all the time...a person who always dana...kind and good hearted person can end up with this pathway...i really cant believe...but he is also a pessimist person...after last month accident,he is fully recover except his right eyesight bit blur...but doc said after 4 months everything will be ok...just this small point he claimed and consider himself is a handicapped person..i feel so sad listen to it..
I feel so sad for his little daughter which is just giving birth...she cant back to see his dad...'red' and 'white' incident collide will cause something bad happen...so she called 3G to my phone to see his dad...my tears flow too...all this is out of sudden!!! now i worried my aunty...hope she will be ok...must be tough enough to past all this...dont worry,we'll be there for you anytime...take care...
This is what we called life
cest la vie
AMITABHA
SADHU..SADHU...SADHU..

-What Is my Life Path Number??-

Your Life Path Number is 6

Your purpose in life is to help others You are very compassionate, and you offer comfort to those around you. It pains you to see other people hurting, and you do all in your power to help them. You take on responsibility, and don't mind personal sacrifice. You are the ultimate giver. In love, you offer warmth and protection to your partner. You often give too much of yourself, and you rarely put your own needs first. Emotions tend to rule your decisions too much, especially when it comes to love. And while taking care of people is great, make sure to give them room to grow on their own.

-What My Birth Date Means??-

Your Birthdate: January 6

You tend to be a the rock in relationships - people depend on you. Thoughtful and caring, you often put others needs first. You aren't content to help those you know... you want to give to the world. An idealist, you strive for positive change and dream about how much better things could be. Your strength: Your intuition Your weakness: You put yourself last Your power color: Rose Your power symbol: Cloud Your power month: June

-cOiNciDeNt-

Today quite enjoy at home....haa...weird right?but i feel so...hehhee...while i watching tv, J**** message me....just recalled last week he told me he will go Singapore this week...then he keep on send me mms....when i received his mms, am so speechless...guess what pic he send me?haa..u will never guess it...is this...Remember where it is?Bugis Street...the place where i waited him for more than 3 hours....i walked all alone over the largest Bugis Street..havent took my lunch and walk for so long...after tired of walking...i sat at the corner...which is infront of Burger King...lol..
J**** sent me this pic just to show me where he is now...so coincident it is the place where our story started..hehee..now..already the end le...hmm...from now,what i thought i will bring it here in my blog...i dont want to keep it..i said before...blog is the place i express myself...now i found it...not bad actually..it works!!!hahhaa...now feel better le...
gambateh carmen!!

- nOt uSeD tO it- nEed tiMe-

Hmm...i cant deny that i didnt miss it at all...i still cant used to it....but i believe i can in future...just need time..i did stupid things...keep looking at my phone...i thought i put silent mode then am not alert with message tone or whatever...but in fact...it is not..my phone used to be very noisy last time..haa...funny and stupid right?okay...i also used to the morning message..every morning before i wake up,sure got message from D***..but today none...and it will be everyday from now..haa...still remember D*** banned to message me before 12noon..cause i wont reply de.hehee.past le..and from now on,i sure will be smarter than before,cause no one will scold me STUPID anymore.must used to it!! no stupid jokes anymore.....no aobanness argue too...haa...and alot more....all put it here..and dont think much le...
Now,focus on what i should do for my better future...yea...gambateh..jiayou..*wink*

- bOn OdORi -

Suddenly feel so empty on Saturday...so i went to bon odori with aikwei and his friends since we never been there before...actually it is a japanese festival...with lots of japanese and food...it is crowded..and HOT!!Look...how crowded it is...hmm...there is a big stage too...having japanese dance...overall...nothing special..just walk around..hmmm...i was thiking if *someone is with me...but i cant do this..not fair to aikwei...lol..sorry..

Other than this,we saw alot of people wearing the devil band...lol..so we bought it too..it looks cute...but not cute in me...lol..wonder how D*** look like in that devil band...lol..okok..
know why only got the pic me and aikwei?cause i only knew him..lol....hmm..wanna see devil among the angel???here goes ...
hehe....*wink*...
Hmm.....we wait for so long just to see the fireworks...long time didnt see it le...really nice...hehee...After that,we went back le...unfortunately..while half way walking my shoe spoilt...=( haiz....so difficult to walk back to car...u know..i walk like am cacat ok...so sad....sod sod...and aikwei giving a 'doesnt make sense' suggestion...guess what he said...hmm..'wanna wear my sportshoe?'...erghh...i feel so funny and ....cute?lol..but anyhow,thanks..i reached home at 11.30pm...quite tired but happy..
Tonight windy night..so cool...must cover blanket le..hehee..wanna sleep early le...ok..stop here..see ya...*muackss*wink*

- g o -

I did something bad on early morning of 19th July....i already decided and i hope D*** let me go this time...i refused to meet him in that morning although he just outside my house...i dont want to be so cruel,but i got no choice..it is useless for us to meet.we still cant do anything..after i say NO,then he leave...the pain is in me that time.lying on my bed...thoughless....sorry D***...i dont mean to hurt u so..
Actually i should be happy cause am chosen...but i just cant accept if the cause is me...other than NO,i didnt know what answer to give...now,all turned to memory..should keep it as sweet one...i tried to filled up my silent night with entertainment...i need time also...now,3:09am...keep on repeating JOEna CARwis..i really missed it.i wish i can cry it out.but the tears is not there.....wonder what are you doing there?how's the situation there?settle down le?hmmmm.......
Anyhow,i believe it will be the past tense of us...including our endless topic,stupid jokes and aobanness argue..copycat..even the last sentense of your last message also wanna copy me.i need some time to recover it....jiayou carcar!!!
Thanks for let me go this time...wish all the best and happiness to 'nathananne'..wish you achieve your 10K very soon...take care..i will think of your jokes when am down..i wont forget the moment we were together...thanks for all the memory...thanks for everything.

-car signed off from joe world-

-A LittLe miSs-A buNcH oF wIsh-

Today i viewed some of my friend's blog...hmm...can say old friend..cause we knew each other since primary...our friendship begin with an innocent and naive smile during primary...as u know,we are all kids at that time..free from worry,free from problems....all we know is having fun,enjoy with our friends....
A blinked of eyes...now we are all graduated...heading towards their own pathway...hmm...let me count...1..2..4...5....hmm...more than ten years le...so fast right?from kiddo to teenager and now turn to ladies!!wow...some still look the same,same become more and more pretty, and some still stay cute....hmm...after think back...i feel so miss...hmm...in this past 5 years..alot of things had happened..misunderstanding,emotional act,lack of communication,gossips,backstabbing..this all starts to influence our friendship...and from what had happened,i learn to be tough and mature....maybe after few years we think back what had happened,u will start laughing ..wonder why are we so childish that time...hmm....now i wont blame,wont complain towards what had happened behind me...at first my heart quite pain when i heard it...but now,it's over...i had overcome all this..actually i knew...i knew everything.all of us got the responsibility on what had happened.everyone had their role in it..hehehe.so now i just put it aside..dunwan to carry the sad memory together with me.so i will be more happy..=)..now i understand...how strong one friendship cant proof by time...u know them long doesnt mean u know them well....now,i do appreciate all my friends.always having sweet time together...thanks for this...
Friends...do take care of yourselves...if anything happen dont worry, friends always by yourside..friends come and go in new environment and also in anytime...i wish all my friends have a bright future,healthy always,and success in whatever they wanna do....
take care and best of luck...my friends...
do keep in touch

-baCk fOr upDatE-

Wah...so long never update le...hmm...wanna start from where le?actually special...hehee..everyday do nothing at home...them sometimes meet R****** at Segafredo.Sega seems to be my 2nd home le....lol...quite comfort.hehee..Ohya,i missed the 988 Live concert at Autocity...so sad..u know why?hmmm...Saturday morning mummy told me they are going KL later noon..so sudden!!they will overnight in KL then proceed to Genting the next morning.at first i refused to go,cause i wanna see Yuga so much..hmm..moreover i promised someone to go le.i feel so bad that i have to break promised.Moreover if i didnt go,my parent wouldnt wanna go..cause mummy worried to leave me alone in the house.End up,i changed my decision le..this is because i want my parents to be happy..and of course family is more important than friend..we will be meeting aunty them at KL...u know how many of us going?is 16!!16 peoples...wow...lol..
At night we go Chinatown....'chi cheong kai'...lol...crowded..the crowd and the people there make me feel that am in Hatyai and not KL..lol...ok..hmm...but i bought one thing over there..hehee...is this..After that we take our supper nearby there...U know..that supper really satisfied me well...we ate alot of spicy food..fish,squid,prawn and chicken are all in spicy.wow....it is super spicy...lol..but is damn nice...i like it so much...my cousin ate till face turn red, some not enough ice water,some give up dont want eat...lol...cute right?hehee

..See...lol...so delicious..all very spicy...next time when i go KL,i sure go eat again...moreover it is not very pricey...worth..lol..
After that we walk all the way back to our hotel at Bukit Bintang...hmm...we chat and jokes too...my cousins and aunty busy thinking of my maths quest..lol...funny.they said if i didnt reveal my answer,they will drop me outside the corridor...hehee...but..myself also dunno the answer...hehehee..
The next morning we proceed to Genting after our breakfast..We reached there at 12noon...hmm..not really cool..okok nie..this time i can enter Casino De Genting le..lol...they didnt check me..WAIT!!i supposed to be sad right?oh no..hehee..nevermind..it shows that i look mature enough to enter...should be happy de...lol...hmm..we went back at 5pm like this...everyone look so tired.we reached home also near 11pm le....lol...
So..overall it is a nice family trip..appreciated it...cant wait for the next trip....

-gUrNey-BeACh-mONt ErSkINe-

Yesterday i went to Penang with my friends..hmm..such a long time i never been there le..at first we went to Gurney..E***** wanna shopping for his suit...but end up,he didnt buy any..lol..after that we went to eat at Secret Recipe...hm..i wanna eat Pastamania de..sad...but is ok la...since everyone wanna eat Secret Recipe.after that we walk around MPH...got alot of novels there....so nice.haa...
Afterthat,we went to Golden Sand's Beach...hmm..never step on the beach since the last trip to Perhentian Island..hmm..unfortunately,it is not the right day for us to go there to watch sunset..the cloud is very thick...blocked us from seeing the sunset.we took alot of pictures there...and..and...while we taking our photo,got one 'angmoh' came over and ask me for photoshot..OMG...he look like a photographer,but i dont know how to post for him...haa...and i realised i feel shy..am blushed after he took my pic..i do gave him my email add so he can send me the photos.haa.this is ont of the photo he send it to me...lol...the darker spot on my left leg is my bruise..lol....the other photo is in kkk's camera and also E*****'s camera...i will upload here when i get it...ansd also my friendster..
The last place we went is Mont Erskine...we went there to eat western food..it is quite famous there and also not expensive...afther eat...we chat awhile..then back home..on the way driving back home,i feel so sleepy...i guess too tired le cause i wake up early in the morning to do blood test.so half way on the bridge,i let E***** drive my car...then i slept awhile..hmm...i cant get to meet R****** last night too,cause too tired le...sorry ya girl...hmm...will have my chocolate granita tonight if can....hehhee..

-iT toOk mE 3daYs-MiSsiON cOmpLEtEd-

At last...mission completed!! so happy..yea yea...wanna know what ?lol..only D*** will know it..hehee..hmmm...frankly speaking...not easy ler especially for me to do it..OH GOSH!! cant believe that i'm doing it..lol..it took me 3 days to complete it.first night,i used my phone to create it.it finished at 3.30am.the next day i sent it to my lappy,but the pics look blurrrrr...so i decide to use my lappy to create it..ok...at first i didnt know how to use it..so i do it slowly.when i almost done..i realised that the song timer is too long..and my clip is too short...haiz..but it ald 4something in the midnight.so i decided to edit it the next day..which mean today.now,everything is done,and i quite satisfied with my hardwork..lol.So D***,now u know why u keep waiting and wait for nothing yet?lol...paise la..this few nights sleep so less...tired nia.hehee..but am happy with my JOEna CARwis-limited edition..i hope D*** wont complain alot.*blekk*
Today supposed to meet Daniel-Lumix de...but end up didnt make it...when am free,he on his way back to Penang ler..just now busy helping mummy to do housework lo...guai right?hhee..nevermind..will meet him next time...don't say me 'bo sim' d la...u also mah...lol..pray that u still keep that photo....haa

-oNE dAy tRIp IN poKoK MaCHaNg-fUn bUt TirEd-

Tomorrow is E*J*** birthday..so today we went to his house to celebrate with him in advanced.his house damn big...and alot of mosquitoes too..maybe mosquitoes only like to bite me..i hate mosquitoes so much!! we plan to cook olive spaghetti and bake choco cake..the choco cake can said successfully baked,but the original olive spaghetti changed to pasta in the end..lol.this is our pasta sauce..yummy.lol

one of our ingredient..favourite sausages

wanna see how we cook?lol.....everyone help out in this cooking....heheee...

is me!!!lol...paise la..

serious right?dont play play..future chef is cooking..lol

hmm..after the cooking,then of cause we try our own made food la...

san,mey and eujoon enjoying their pasta

kkk and me taking pic after the pasta

After the pasta,we sat awhile then we continue with our bake cake session...lol.the cake took almost one and half hour to ready.i think more than that.lol.while waiting our cake,we collect coconut..this is the first time i made the coconut drinks by myself and friend's help.the coconut drink is sweet enough,no need to add any sugar.really fresh.

see...can you see the little heart shape there?

and after that,our cake turn out in this way...buffet chocolate cake!!lol

lol..saw the spoon?we just eat it in this way.the chocolate melt on top of it.although the look is not nice,but taste not bad k...lol


At night we went to eat TamKee duck rice at Lunas..yummy...so nice...hehhee.today really ate alot..cham..tummy going to burst.lol..today Ms.Gok joining us too.our PA teacher..the other photos i will upload in friendster..hehee..still got a lot more.today really tired,but happy.i reached home at 11.30pm le..whole day.trying to spend more times with them..cause in future,those chances will be very less.
Other than this,another happy news is...tomorrow Daniel-Lumix will be coming BM..so he wanted to meet up.will try to take pic with him as memory cause we seldom got chance to meet too.moreover he going to study in England soon...haa..let's see how tomorrow..*wink*

-sOmEwHerE..oVeR tHe RaINbOw-

Thanks for the photo D***...who said i don't care?although we are looking at the same piece of sky,but is different place mar...hmmm..from the photo i saw two rainbows...u see it?guys,see it?i believe D*** is thinking of me when he take this photo that's why he sent it to me.
D***,i like this photo so much..hmm..sometimes i dunno what D*** think.He don't want to tell me anything nowadays.just normal chat and jokes..but,what his mind is thinking,no one knows.i just wanna share everything with you.If such a simple duty i also can't do it well,then what else i can do?more useless right?hmm..D***,no matter what,i willing to listen.i'll always stand by your side to support u..anyway,as long as you happy then i will happy for you.

-YOU ARE MY ANGEL-

Once upon a time
Archangel in the sky
Made a cover every night
Once upon a time
The angel loved me so
It'a miracle
In the snow, my heart won't be cold
My Dear
You are my angel
Tell me what you know
Something should be told
My Dear
You are my angel
Tell me where you go
I will prance behind your flow
Once upon a time
My angel gave me life

p.s.one of the romantic song in Forensic Heroes 2..i'm loving it

-cuRReNt pLaN-LOVE YOU-

Alright...decided with daddy mummy ler...i will take Utar Jan intake...so from now till Dec i will be working with CNM.lol.still waiting for his call for confirmation.mummy worried when it reach Jan,i will be no mood to study anymore...i wont cause what i wanna do in future,i must study bout it...so mummy dont worry ya...moreover i just cant go KL like this...i must think and consider whether u will be able and afford to send me there or not mah..daddy mummy, i'm not a selfish daughter..i wont let myself add on the weight on your shoulder.love u.
Today D*** called me so many times..i know what u thinking k.you just scared and worried i will simply think mah..i wont anymore la.i just want you to pay more attention on your career. haa..you said no matter what,you wont let me face it in my own right?you will be with me right?ok..let's see it.lol.
One good and happy news...Y*** coming back this weekend lerr..so happy..she got alot to share with me,so do i..miss her so much..then we will together go Pizza again..lol.maybe change place.haa..cant wait for you..
hug and miss

-wHeRe am I-LoST iN me-

I dont know why in this two months,everything just like not going well in me...what happen to carmen???where is all my luck go?hmmm...Utar intake have to wait till Jan ler..so,what i should do now?plan to go where?mummy said go UCSI at KL..intake on August...but i scared i burden my parents.i dont know whether they afford to do or not...so how now?the place i hated so much...end up,i might be going there...why things like to come opposite in me....same to,i wish to be with D***,will it end up opposite too?..i should enter form6..see,i hate HighSchool so much..end up,study there for one and half years..hm..now i really lost ler...last time result was so good..after enter form6 till now,all gone ler..now i understand,in life we cant do things in a forcing situation..'mian qiang mei xin fu', right?
Will update in next...

-pErFeCt cOupLe-uSeLeSs MisS-nOt As i tHiNK-

Just now attended A***'s wedding dinner...the dinner decoration is nice..the lovable couple is cute..A*** go cheer with his friends,then A**** go cheer with her friends.u do yours,i do mine...u walk yours,i walk mine....cute nia..pretty bride,handsome bridegroom....perfect couple...all his buddy so happy cheering with him..even S** also back from Japan just for his wedding dinner...surprise and mystery guest...haa..everyone was there,just left out my beloved kor kor nia...sad...i guess kor sure wish them happy forever de...although didnt attend in person,but wishes always there..
I wonder my miss will turn to useless one or what...suddenly i feel so tensed with myself...i cannot share with people,i keep all in my own...my memory disc will full sometimes..suddenly feel very emo to D***..sorry D***...i'm just..just feel that i cant share alot with u,we getting less and less knowing each other things ler.i dont want to share so much with u cause i dont want add on your pressure...this is the harm for a distance relationship.moreover,i'm not that tough as i think..last night when u told me bout the bad news,i really speechless...and i cant stop thinking bout her in our conversation..i dont want de..i promised u ler,so i will try..*blekk*..i wont ask anymore,wont related to her anymore..sounds good right?hahhaa...dont worry..i will step out if one day i cant stand it...lol...dont care...lallalalalaa